New Leaf

Salam Peeps...

WhaT a BraNd and FreSh new Day!

That is what I feel from the moment I woke up from my sleep =)

I do not know why....but I just feel grateful for being alive!!!!

SOunds funny, rite? Well, sometimes you does not know why you feel something even though you tried to find some causes to your feeling....

Even though there are so many problems rite now in my mind, I still feel happy..Alhamdulillah...

And now, I'm gonna put myself first in everything that I do...

I want to take my sweet old time that I've missed...

I do not want to burden myself with all these uncertainties...

And most of all, I want to stop blogging about these crappy guyfrens...hehehe

But if there's anything juicy, I'll definitely update...don't worry k...

YOU will be the first one to know *winks*

Ok then, gotta go... I have class to attend....

Sayonara =)

Something + sometimes + someone =)

Hola Peeps...

In life, there will always be something which beyond our expectation happened...

Just now, i had a short chat with one of my guy friends...i've mentioned him before in some of my previous posts...and frankly speaking, I am quite closed with 3 guys right now...and all of them still are full of questions and answers....

Ok, so back to the chatting thing...I saw him online on YM so I greet him...here are a bit of our conversation:


me: salam awak!


him: salam.


me: apa kabar? awak tengah keja ke?


him: khabar baik. haah.


me: sori ganggu.


him: tidak mengapa. bila exam?


me: 17 june. cepat kan? awak tak cuti ke?


him: Saya dapat keja kat penang. Mayb pertengahan bulan ni kena lapor diri.


me: Alhamdulillah. bagus la. dekat dgn family awak. keja apa tu?


him: production executive. tu lar dekat dgn family. tapi lagi jauh dgn awk. huhu


me: eleh...takpe la jauh di mata. hehe... awak, keja tu buat pe?


him: ok awak...saya ada keja nak wat.



he signed out. I was like....WTH. he is a guy which is full of questions and it is really hard to figure it out. what does is mean when he says "...lagi jauh dgn awak..."? It was like there is something that have to do with the distance which apart us...

I did not care to consider about him until he said like dis. hmmm....

And about the other guy, things are quite neutral a bit. Alhamdulillah....he contacted me back only that we want to give some times to ourselves. We have clear things out. I hope that Allah will show me the way to my one and only guy...I'm sick and tired with all these questions and game...
Hmmm....

And there he goes....aGain....

When you are in a relationship with someone, you will tend to expect more than you usually do...

That's the problem with me....

He is the kind of guy who will come and go in my life....

but when I'm into this relationship with him, I expected him to contact me all the time...

and of course, he will not contact me every day....coz he is himself.

And I am too selfish...always want things to be like what I want...never considered about how he feels...

Stop blaming him, Fadiah!

Holding On

People come and go in your life...there will always be the new and old ones...

And those who stay along the way in your life deserves so much and should be appreciated...

An interesting update in my life: I'm getting to feel something towards someone...

Like a song goes: "It started with a feeling...which then grew into a hope..."

yeah...that's totally right.

It's all begins with a simple phone call...then started with friendship, without knowing one another...then slowly feelings bloomed and there we are...in a relationship, but still...there are some vague things that I have to make it clear....

It is difficult when you know someone who is new to you...Meaning that: u did not know anyone who is related to him...you did not know his past (except for what he told you) and you did not have anyone to refer to...

So in that case, you will have to trust him and only him. And yes, even though there will always be risks, you will have to face it.

I trust him with all my heart, however there will always be to certain extend which I did not trust him fully....I will do as best as I can...and I am totally into this relationship. Unless if there is no future for us, then I will follow it if that is the best for me.

He is such a bless for me as I am for him.

"O Allah, grant us with happiness and make it easier for us in our future. Ameen..."

Whatever...

Do not hate people, Fadiah....

Yeah...i know that hatred is not good, but somehow I cant control it...

I've tried many ways...avoidance, neglect him...but still, i cant get him out of my mind...

Come on la, Fadiah...try your best and take those who love you...not those who you loved...

today, i had my midterm...yesterday, i could not study at all...i was reading the notes for today midterm and yet, my mind was wandering around on the thoughts of him and what we had done...

O Allah...help me please....

The on and off...

When people tell than they like you and then they ignore you...it is soooo annoying..

Last nite, I make it all clear with him...

I told him that if he wants to ignore me, then I am fine with that. I am done with him!

Decision

In life, there will be time for you to make decisions. Be it an important one or not, decisions will always be things that will affect your life.

The same goes with me. There are a looooooot decisions that I have to make such as to continue my studies, having relationship with someone etc.

Recently, I made a decision to meet with someone who i rarely know... We went out and he brought me around kL...i went back around 4 am...and yes, I admit that I am crazy. But trusting someone who rarely know, is it wrong?

I'm not sure of my true feelings towards him. The only thing that I know that I trust him as long as he is sincere with me...I did not force him to contact me or become close to me. If he want to, then it is my pleasure. But if he want to stop, then it is my pleasure to stop. I am not the one who will do something that someone else did not want to....