Uwaaaaa~

Ohaiyo peeps!

Im starving rite now...hehe

In the ITD lab...still waiting for the time to pass...

Woke up this morning, went to class in AIKOL, then the class was canceled as the lecturer didnt turn up...uwaaaaaaa~...

And there will be a meeting for the Media Team tonite...waiting for it...


It has been so looooong that I havent updated this blog...

It was a quite busy day for me since my return to IIUM, but I will try my best to update wif u, guys k?

Recently, i have been keeping secrets from a lot of people....I think, it is time for me to make more self-reflections and reduce my talking habit..hehe

It does not mean that I do not trust them, but I think it is not important for them to know... Therefore, I didnt tell them.

And when you decided to keep things from people, they will obviously talk about it... and YES, they do talk about me.

and I dont care.

as long as I feel that I can handle it, there is no necessity for anyone to know.

Haiyaaaa...all this worldly problem make my head spins la...

uwaaaaaa~

tak paham kan? hehe

A 'Cockroach'iest Day

I gained a new experience today - how to deal with cockroaches.

WHaT?!

COCKroaches? hehe... (notty little me *wink*)

ok ok... it is ----> cockroaches...insects, pests etc....

I neither fear not like them...but today, I had to face them!

So here is the story:

I went out around 1130 am...I went to the Pasar Bulat, to buy some things for Ibu, then head to the interchange to meet bluefairy. She asked me to accompany her for some attire hunting. hehe..then we had our lunch at Ramen Ten....the Food was superbly Delicious!

The new Look of Ramen Ten

Chopsticks and serviette

That's me

Bluefairy

*Mine*

*Hers*

After the lunch, we rushed back to our house because someone will be coming over to repair my home PC. As soon as we reached my housing area, there is a insect fogging going on. Then I went into my house, and straight to my kitchen, and then I saw.....

COCKROACHES!!!!

BIG and small cockroaches!!!!!

All of them walking around my kitchen...so I declare war with them. Without waiting for more to come, I took my weapon -----> the insect repellent spray. YeaY! hehe

I sprayed and sprayed...until I, myself feel suffocated...haha...and here are the result:

Eyeeeew....

And of course, I won the war....MasyaAllah...hehe

It is a new experience for me. The cockroaches appeared because of the insect fogging. They thought that they can survive in my house, but they are wrong! Pity them....

Well, there is a lesson for me though....always remember to close the window properly when leaving the house. *sigh*

Friends...

Some come and stay...

Some come, stay and leave...

Some come just to drop by...

They are FRIENDS.

I love them soooo much that I cant even express it in my own words....

But I know that I couldnt be same to everyone...there will always be some who are closed with me and some who are not.

but no matter how they are towards me....i still love and appreciate them.

May ALLAH blessed all of them!!!!! Amin...

Down the memory lane...

Mushi-mushi peeps...

Today, Im gonna meet my lovely gurlfrens and hope that it will be fun...insyaAllah...

Well, as all of you know, on last Saturday, I had a trip to Malacca...

It was a fun, happy and exciting trip ever!

We went out early in the morning becoz Ayah's car has to go out from S'pore before 7 am..we pick up hanis and her sister around 6 am plus...then reached the Woodland immigration...There were a massive traffic jam...we got through around 7 plus...

Then we stopped by my uncle's house at Johore...Rest for a while and continued our journey around 10 am...we reached Malacca at 12 plus...

We picked up Neng at the Malacca Sentral, then headed to al-'Adzhim mosque to meet with Kak Fiza. As we arrived, Kak Fiza already waited for us at the main gate...then she lead us to her house. At her house, we were served with delicious food and as well as her good hospitality =)

Around 2 plus, we continued our journey to Nyalas and it took us around one and half hour to reach the place. As soon as we reached there, the first person that me and Neng saw was Abg Azlan! Hehehe...both of us were soooo excited that as we got out from the car, we ran after him (becoz we thought that he was about to leave).

"ABG AzlaaaaaN...!"

Both me and Neng shout. Hehe....then he smiled and quite surprised to see us.

After changing some news, we headed to the bride's house...And we met with some of our old classmates....Nazim came with his wife, Eisham were also there too *winks*, Kak Dila with her hubby - Abg Hafiz, and Kak Syamin with her hubby - Abg Zul.

We ate and then meet up with the bride and groom. Kak Hajar was stunningly pretty and she was not as loud as before. hehe. might bcoz of her husband, mayb =)

Then after a loooong conversation, it is time to wave goodbye to them. I was sad to leave them as there are a lot of memories that I shared with them...but that is Life....

We hugged and kissed...and waved goodbye to them, with hope to get to meet them in the future...

We started our journey back to S'pore...and then, somewhere in the journey, something happened.

While I was asleep, suddenly my hp rang. I looked at the screen, it was an unknown number.

"Hmmm...who could that be..." I thought and I answered it lazily.

"Assalamualaikum...Dyah ke ni?" the voice said.

"wsalam...a ah. Sape ni?"

"Ni abg Azlan la....abg nak sure kan Dyah maseh guna no ni atau tak..."

I was like "Duh...!" (in my heart la...hehe)

but instead I answered "Owh...maseh2..."

"Ok la tu je....Assalamualaikum."

After that, I continued my journey in my dreams. hehe. Then we had a stop somewhere in Johore becoz ibu wanted to buy some things.

Hanis, her sister and me went to the 7-11 and had a nice coffee break. I smsed him and apologize bcoz I didn't talked to him much.

These are a part of our smsed conversation:

Me: Abg Azlan, maaf eh tadi tak bebual sgt. Masa abg kol tu, saya tengah tido. hehe.

Him: oo ye ke? dah sampai S'pore? Masih comel dan manis mcm dulu. Abg lagi le comel. hi hi. so. skrg dah ada calon blm? bila habis belajar?

Me: Blm. Maseh pat johor. Saya tengah cuti. 22 dec nanti alek uia. Calon? belom ada lagi. Kalau nak carikan, boleh la...hehehe.

Him: Jadi calon abang je la. Kalau sudi, Tentu tak nak nye kan. tak hensem dah sekarang.

+Paused+

I was like...."WHAAAAAT?!"

Immediately I showed Hanis the msg and she smiled. She said "Kalau dia yang terbaik untuk ko, why not?"

then she told me to reply this "Errmmm...nanti mak abg pulak tak suka. Diah kan org s'pore."

I was expected of him to reply something negative, but instead he replied this:

"Wah. Sejarah tetap sejarah. Tak boleh dipadamkan gupenye. tu crita lamalah. skrg, abg dah pun menghabiskan perjalanan belajar abg yg panjang + pnuh liku2. Mak abg insyaAllah lebih neutral."

After that, we smsed for a long time. I found soooo hard to believe, after what had happened before....

I just hope and pray that if he is the one, Allah will make my heart accept him bit by bit.

InsyaALLAH...I only believe in ALLAH and HE knows the best for me.

Just Let Them Be?

Hey peeps...

Tomorrow Im gonna have a trip to Malacca...and I cant waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiT!

Im gonna attend a wedding in Malacca and so excited that I think that I couldnt even sleep tonite. It is one of my gurlfrens wedding...and I hope that I get to meet alot of my old buddies. InsyaAllah...

ok so currently, my mind cant stop thinking about the third species issue...

you might been asking "what the heck is the 3rd species?"

Well, it is my own term which I came up with...ok, if in this world, there are humans us as the well-known species, then the animals as the second, and third are the homos...creative huh?

ok...these species might be angry when they read my blog....well too bad....coz this is my blog. And I can write whatever I want.

But before continue this entry, I would like to state that I am NOT homophobia...I just sympathize for them cause they could not think straight...and I find most of them are too confused in their own world.

And another thing, I am just a simple human being, who often make mistakes. Therefore, Im way off then perfection...I am someone who try to help those who WANTS to help themselves...

Im juz curious of these third species....It is not that what they do that concern me, but it is what they bring along them which matters to me....

They are just human like us...and yes, they stand on their so-called-human-right platform...

How much exactly do they know about human right?

Does human right allows you to do things which cause harm to others?

I find it is confusing when they state that they are not allowed to practice what they want to do...but it is the ideology which they bring with them, which could cause harm to the society...

You can be the third species, but please please please...do not seduce us,human beings...

I just couldnt see the benefit that they bring...most of them just followed their desire in engaging with this activity....

SEX, SEX and a lot more SEX...that's all they care.

Is that all we need for life?

Is that what the society really need?

On the other hand, some of them even from wealthy peoples, good looking men and women, hold high position in their jobs etc.

One thing that make me concern is that: these third species are the cause of extinction of human beings. And THIS is not the harm which they cause (that what they think...)

It is not that white tigers, or Orang Utan will only extinct...but we, human beings, will also gonna be extinct one day, if these third species increases.

Well, go on and join the third species!

Let us cherish for the extinction of humans! YeaY! Yippeee....

For those who are in the third species, you can live as you like but please do not influence us, the humans....and if you want to come back to the human life, well, you are always welcome =)

I think I can see what the future has stored for us:

+ The definition of family does not only consist of a father, a mother and childrens....but it will also consist of a father, a father or a mother, a mother with their childrens...

+ Father and mother can be both male or female....

+ Children will gonna asked: "Mummy, why does her mother is a male?" or "Mummy, why does her father is a female?"

Children also will find it is difficult for them to understand and we will have to answer them creatively....

Sounds confusing, rite?

Well, you'd better figure it out your own...

Welcome to the New Generation, peeps!

Pieces of Me

Hola Peeps...

For this entry, im gonna write sumthing about my life journey before I started this blog....

First of all, let me start with my family.

I came from a small family...my parent, an older sister, me and a younger brother.

My sister is already married and she stayed in KL, while my brother is currently doing his degree in al-Azhar university in Egypt...

and now, the one that left in S'pore is only me and my parents...and soon I will be going back to KL too...because my holiday is gonna end in about 10 days from now...

ok...dat is about my family.

Now about my education....ermmm...I have graduated from:

- One of the madrasahs in Singapore
- One of the Quranic memorization Institution in Malaysia

and currently I am a full time student of an University in Malaysia

I will graduate in Nov 2009, insyaAllah...

Well, now a bit about my appearance....

I cannot describe exactly how I look like because I am not good in describing things, be it people or animal etc...

but I will try my best...

this is how I look like:
- wear glasses
- veiled
- small-sized, my height is about 1.4, i tink (didnt look like a 25th year old lady...people said dat I look younger than my age...well dat is wat they said...mayb...)


ok, that's it....

now. some info about my personality....

I am an outgoing person...I like to make friends with anyone...

I am a straight forward person....I will say what I feel...eventhough it will hurt the other person...so beware of me...but it still depends on situation though....

I love to talk and discuss about issues, but if I am not sure about the issue, I will tell you directly...

I like to do what I want but sometimes I does consider the others....

Hmmm...what else ar?

I think, that's all for now...and if you wanna find out about me, u can simply drop me a msg or email me ok?

That's all for now. peeps....

The Beauty of Sacrifice

Today, I had a stroll in Downtown East, with my best GF, SHay.

We went window-shopping, bought some clothes, met with those we know and help her out at her shop.

She is one of my GF. I had a looot of GF, such as Khudaij, Hanis, Neng, Qad, Bluefairy, Snowputri and Ayu.

They are the one whom I seeked for advices, help out, shared my happiness and tears, spread my love, get scolded and many many more.

I am sooooo grateful for having them by my side and I always appreciate what they have done to me and treasure them as much as they have always treasured me.


Last Monday, 8th of Dec 2009, was the day of celebration for the Muslim all over the world.

It is the day of sacrifice.

It is the day of worship.

It is the day to prove our love towards our Lord.

I went out with my parent for a little 'Raya visit'.

After the Eid prayer, we went to my Grandma's house, then to Nek Anjang's house and Nek Anjang's daughter's house (i forgot her name la...haiyaaaa).

After that, we went to COURTS, because Ayah want to buy a new TV. hehe...

I always loved to follow my parents going house-visiting. because there will always be a lesson to be learn, such as a the visit to Nek Anjang's house. This is the first time whereby I actually get to have a conversation with her. And I found that she is really a nice and strong lady.

That goes also to my grandma. She is a strong lady and always strive hard to give us the best. Although sometimes she nagged and nagged, but it does not bother me much.

Thanks ALLAH for giving me such opportunities =)

Truth - does hurt

Truth. That what people really want, and yet some of them are not able to face it.

Just like me.

Sometimes I do want to know the truth really bad...but when I know it, I had the difficulty to face it especially when it is against me.

However, I will accept it gradually, when I started to think and ponder upon it.

That is the TRUTH.

Just like what I've done towards W.

It is the TRUTH.

Although I knew that it is going to hurt myself, hurt him and others, but it still the TRUTH.

Although I feel bad about it, but I relieved that I had told him the truth.

I would have expected of his reaction, and I deserved that kind of treatment. I realized that I am not perfect, therefore I am trying my hard to make myself better.

I am tired of lying and being a hypocrite.

I just want to be myself.

I want people to accept me as I am.

I realized that when I became closed with W, I am drifted from my true self. Therefore, I decided to tell him the truth and stop all the lies.

I am grateful and happy now.

Thank you, ALLAH...for giving me the strength that I need.

Unspoken Words

Hi peeps...

Today, i went to the airport to send my aunty for the pilgrimage...

Then suddenly i received an SMS from someone i know...

Dyah, do u still used this number?

I was like...DUh!

ok...so i replied: Yup...why,sis?

Then about a minute like that, she called me...and here are the conversation:

"Dyah...you have been deceived!!"

I was like...huh? Then she continued...

"do u know that W hasn't deleted his FB?"

"Are you sure, kak? Coz he told me that he deleted it..."

"No..it is still on..."

"Owh ok la...mayb he restart it again...Later when i get back, i'll check..."

"Or it could be that he lied to you..he said that he deleted it, but he just delete you from his friends' list..."

"Hmmm...im not sure la, kak...nevermind...later, i'll check k..."

"Owh...ok. dats all i wanted to tell you...Salam."

-End of conversation-



After hang up, i was like...how could she called me just to inform me about that?

It was unreasonable, not important, and make me jump to conclusion.

And yes, i did jump to conclusion. I assumed that W really lied to me. Therefore, I smsed him.

if you didnt want to befriend with me anymore, just tell me. Do not lie to me. cause people will talk. And i dont like to hear those talking.

Then he replied,

let them talked. If we did sumthing, they will talk. If we didnt do it, they will also talk. there's no different.

I was soooooo shock after hearing that....Immediately I replied:

Fine. So from this moment, let us get too close with each other. Juz pretend that u didnt know me, and I didnt know you. End of story.

I was so damn surpised. How could he said like that? He did not even stand up for himself. I would expect him to say something else....

Well, after that I shared the story with one of my besties....she adviced me to stay calm and just do whatever I think dat it is right....

Im not sure why such things happened recently? It is like....hello, December...my birthday is near...i wanna be happy...

Mayb it is just a test for me....

yeah, mayb....

After some time after that, I emailed him, apologise for my loud behaviour....and at the same time, I asked him to do me a favour -----> to hate me.

Yes, that is exactly what I've asked him to do.

And the truth is, I do not want him to hate me.

This is me, lying again....

Counting Stars

I can't sleep....

I am so worried that I have trouble when it comes to sleep...

Right now, staring at the monitor...

I dont know what to write...

Aha...!

I know!

I will share with you some of my life stories...

Ok, this story is about my bestfriend, W...

I got to know him in Dec 2007...but that time, we are just normal friend. no sharing secrets and stories. no hanging out. just a normal, usual friendship.

By early 2008, we became close and start to share stories, secrets, gossips, ideas etc. It was fun having bestfriend of the opposite gender. I learned a lot from him and im so grateful that I met him.

However, we had a terrible fight recently. This is because of my-big-and-loud-mouth. I said something which had caused changes in our friendship...

I asked him this stupid-not-supposed-to-ask-question:
"Do you think that you are using me when I am closed to you?"

AND for sure, he is Furiously MaD. and starting from that very moment, I knew that he did not trust me anymore...

I am sooooo upset and blame it on myself. Until now....

What should I do in order to make up to him?

Do you have any suggestions?

I like him as my bestfriend and I dont wanna lose him. But I did such a terrible mistake....

Me and my big mouth *sigh*

PiLoT

Some things are meant to stay for a while and some are meant to stay forever. But there are no such things as 'forever ever' in this world. cause this world itself is something that can be destroy...

I cannot recall for how many times I have changed my blog. hehe. But I hope that this blog will last a bit longer than the previous one...

I decided to make a new one because I've lost track on what I've been writing for my old blogs. Therefore, I started on a fresh page and will try to continue as much as I can...

So...welcome to my blog.

This is my PILOT entry.

We will fly together along the journey of my life...

Seat belts, everyone! =)