Eternally

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Everything had ended yesterday. I felt very very sad in the beginning. But now, I feel relief and very thankful. Alhmdulillah.

It was quite a good lesson for me. And new experience too.

First time jumpa parents org. First time pegi dating or whatever. & whatever it is, just look at the brighter side of it.

Seriously, fadiah Malas nak pikir the real reason for his decision. Tapi tak dapat dinafikan, ada terpikir jugak. Mcm dia ada perempuan lain, or sbb fadiah ni terlalu mengongkong. Then when I shared it with my sis, she said that mayb his parents was the one who are not sure about me.

And whatever it is, it had happened. Fadiah maseh tetap tak faham & tanak tahu. Biarlah ia menjadi rahsia Allah.

Furthermore, I did my istikharah. And I am confident that it is the answer for the istikharah.

Alhmdulillah for all the blessings. Praise be to Allah, cause only Him, where true happiness lies. And I am on my way there. Kheir insyaAllah ^^

20.12 ^^

Ahlan Wa Sahlan....Welcome 2012 ^^

oK, I know that it has been a few weeks since the 1st January....

I have been very very busy with my LIFE & did not have time to update it in this blog.

Therefore, most of my stories, I shared it with my one & only beloved diary. hehehe. So dont bother to read this blog as it will be abandon soon. *evil laugh*

ok done! May Allah bless all of us...Ameen ;)

Pre - Meeting

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

You will never walk alone...

It was beyond my expectation. 

I did not expect to know him. It was like a miracle. 

Last month, when everything seems dark and fall apart, suddenly there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

So here the story goes...

One of my colleagues asked me if I would like to get to know with one of her friends... She wanted to introduce me to him. Then I said that I don't mind. Just ask him to make the first step. 

Then several days after that, I received a friend request on FB. It was a guy. I approved him. The next day, he messaged me. After some conversation, we exchanged our numbers. So that is the beginning...

Few weeks after our conversation over the phone, he would like to meet me face to face. I was hesitated at first. But then, I just go with what my heart tells me. 

We met @ Tampines, right after my work. We went for a dinner & he walked me home. IT WAS THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT A GUY WALKED ME HOME!!! (ada sikit bunga-bunga di hati ni, tapi baru sikit ajerrr)

So, that was the first time we met. Didnt feel so awkward, yet it was awesome. Totally. 

Followed by that, we initiated a second meeting. It was on Wednesday (several weeks after the first one), after his work. 

We went for a walk @ the town, lunch at Cineleisure. While having our late lunch, he popped up some questions regarding our future. It was a short & nice meet up.

And tomorrow, he is going to meet my parents. I am happy, yet not too happy. in other words, I am grateful. Truly grateful.

I have many sins, and yet the blessings are still pouring non stop. Alhamdulillah :,)

May Allah make it easier for us. For every one of us. Ameen.  

  

December: My precious month

Assalamualaikum...

The colours in my Life ^^

It is here again. Alhamdulillah...

I do not have any holiday for this month, but I am glad that I could make it. All praises to the Creator...

It is just a special month for me. Besides than it is my birthday month, it is also a month of reunite with my family. I have missed loads of family activities, and rite now, I am going to grab the oppotunities that have been given. And yeah, I am going to resign from Cordova and will be continuing in HANIS.

Yes, U did not see a wrong thing. It is Hanis. I will be joining the team again. For the SECOND time. upon a REQUEST from my friends. And I am going to go for the Diploma in Early Childhood. Which means, I have to resume my studies. Weeeeeeeeeee~ I cant wait to have my student life. Though it is a different one. coz I have to work + study = WOAH~

It is a tough. But I am going to try. NO harm in trying.

Wish me luck! ^^

Things we often forget...

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah, all praises be to Allah for all the blessings that have been pouring non stop, from the day we are born in this world, until now, the day we still standing on this earth...

The oxygen that we breathe, the foods that we ate, the money that we have, those people that who we loved and who loves us too, the problems that we faced etc.

All these are the littlest things that we overlooked and sometimes took it for granted...

This post is just a little reminder, for myself especially, to always appreciate and cherish those people and blessings that were blessed upon us...

Thank you, Allah...Thank you, thank you, thank YOU ^^

Maju terus...

Masa tidak akan menunggu sesiapa...

Assalamualaikum...

Apabila ada sesuatu perkara yang di luar jangkaan kita berlaku, terasa hidup seperti terhenti seketika. Tetapi saya salah. Ia tidak berhenti, cuma ia dibazirkan. Ia terus berjalan dan berlalu meninggalkan kita. Dan apa yang saya dapat? Tidak ada apa-apa...

Lalu, diri ini berfikir sejenak.... Mencari sesuatu yang hilang dari diri. Bukan orang yang hilang. Tetapi semangat & keimanan yang berkurangan.

Ye, sekarang baru saya sedar. Dan saya tidak mahu membazirkannya lagi. Saya ingin mencapai sebanyak yang mungkin kerana saya telah banyak membazir. Dan sesungguhnya orang yang suka membazir itu adalah kawan Syaitan.

في الآخر...

Bersyukur. Sedih. Lega. Kecewa.

All these feelings are inside me now.

I decided to let it all go. So that I will not be thinking about it anymore.

My mistakes:
- I let she trust me.
- I never verify it with him.
- I broke the promise.
- I pretend to be ok when it is not.
- I keep it inside & do not let it go.

And now, It's over. Its the end. All the dramas. All the lies. I've hurt so much till it became numb. I learnt a lot from it.

I am only human. For Allah's sake.

I have nothing to say. It's done.

...حسبنا الله ونعم الوكيل وتوكلنا على الله