Ain't about the money?

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh...

Life is indeed full of suprises, rite?

Well, well, well....

Recently, something happened to me. Something which I have not expected. 

Before I share the story, let me make it clear that this is just a sharing. 

Ok, one of the best parts in the career life is when it is the SALARY period. Kaching kachiiiing~ ~ ~

It is understandable that part of our intentions to work is to earn for a living. Everyone knows that. It is a common sense. 

However, when people started to question you like this:

"Eh, I thought you work for the sake of Allah. So why worry about your salary?"

I will start to take a very deep breathe and pause for a moment.  

Before I start to give my answer, I will ask them back: 

"Are you saying that when we mentioned about the salary, it shows that we do not work for Allah's sake?"

They will start to rephrase their sentences and continue with their own reasoning.

So people, we are living in the world, where money is needed. It might not be a primary need, but it is part of our need. Therefore, stop asking that kind of questions. It does not mean that when people asking THEIR RIGHT about their salary, they do not work for Allah's sake. 

Ok, back to my story. (yang kat atas tu intro aje. Hehehehe)

Before I went back into this current organization, I expected that they would make some changes. Unfortunately, my expectation is wrong. 

My salary for this month has been POSTPONED for 7 this, due to the mistake from one of my colleagues.

Yeah, at first I was furious, mad and all those unappropriate stuff. But several days later, I started to calm down and told myself that I will gonna give them a letter by the end of the year. 

It is as simple as that.

I do not want to make a big issue for those who do not know their responsibility. I have been tolerating with their nonsense policy (Which is: they salary will be suspended if one of the staffs' punch card has problem, such as did not state the total lateness, did not attach the MC etc). And another thing, about the CPF thingy. Tak payah nak cakap la. Buat penat mulut aje.

I feel so dissapointed that they never change. Oh well, a leopard can never change it spots, i guess.

Lesson learnt: If you cannot expect a person to change, then do not expect an ORGANIZATION to change.

Last but not least, a friend just texted me, asking for a counselling session. Maybe I should try on this...hmmmm~ time for an istikharah! 

Wish me luck!

And the same goes to you, my loyal readers ^^

Fight On!

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Just when you think that everything is going fine, according to your way, then suddenly it is NOT!

What will you do?

Will you stop?

Or will you keep on going?





As for me, sometimes I will pause for a moment, take a deep breath, ponder, reflect....and continue my journey as usual.

Just like this blog.

Sometimes there are soooo many posts. Like a daily one.

But then, there will come a time, where all the spiders will come out and fill in their webs... (you know what i mean?)

As long as I am breathing, this journey of life will continue. Come what may....I will continue to fight. InsyaAllah.

May Allah will always be with us.

Untuk seseorang yang bergelar kawan

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

"People come and go. Oh well, that's life." ^^

Baru-baru ini, ada seorg kawan Fadiah yang kata dia tanak berhubung dengan Fadiah lagi. 

Bedek la kalau kata Fadiah tak sedih. Ye, saya sedih. Tapi tak dapat nak paksa orang untuk terus berkawan dengan kita kan. 

Persahabatan, percintaan, perkahwinan dan apa-apa hubungan sekalipun, merupakan perkara-perkara yang tidak boleh dipaksa. kerana ianya berkaitan dengan hati.

Sepanjang hidup di dunia ini, Fadiah berkawan dengan ramai orang. & dari situ, Fadiah dapat menilai yang mana kawan yang sejati & sebaliknya. 

Walau apa pun keadaan sekali pun, teruskan berbaik sangka. Fadiah tetap ingat dia sebagai seorang kawan yang pernah berkongsi & mengajar sesuatu. 

Dia ada buat satu permintaan terakhir, iaitu memadam segala yg berkaitan dengan diri dia.

Di sini Fadiah nak minta maaf, kerana terus terang Fadiah katakan, Fadiah tak dapat buang apa2 kerana semua ni adalah sebahagian dari memori Fadiah.

Bila umur dah meningkat ni, kita semakin lebih menghargai daripada menghindari. Ye, itu yang Fadiah rasa. Walau sakit mcm mana sekalipun, Fadiah kena bertahan. Tak nak mengelak. kerana itu lah lumrah kehidupan. 

Kesakitan itu mengajar kita untuk menjadi kuat.

Dulu masa muda remaja, Fadiah memang suka mengelak. Bila ada masalah sikit aje, mula la duduk sembunyi sorang2. So, Fadiah faham sedikit sebanyak apa yang kawan Fadiah tu rasa. 

Ada jugak orang kata yang Fadiah ni pentingkan diri sendiri, insensitive & macam-macam lagi. Tapi mcm W dan Bluefairy cakap, biarlah apa orang nak kata. Mereka tak faham keadaan kita. Mereka hanya menilai dari luaran. Diorang pon penah lalui apa yang Fadiah lalui. Orang kata diorang selfish. So, biarkan laaaa~

Untuk kawan Fadiah yang dah tanak kawan lagi tu: Terima kaseh kerana kehadiran awak mengajar sesuatu. Memori itu memang tak dapat dilupakan kerana ia sebahagian dari kehidupan saya. Maaf kerana kehadiran diri ini menyusahkan awak. Maaf juga sekiranya salah menilai atau menafsir awak. Maaf juga kerana tidak dapat menjadi seorang kawan yang baik.  Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah. Pasti. Semoga kebahagiaan sentiasa menjadi milik awak. Kheir InsyaAllah ^^

The Busy Bee

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh...

How have you been?

As for me, it was a hectic months. Been busy completing the LP, filling in the students record, preparing props & decor, arranging the plans and so on....

Last two weeks was at the peak. I went back from work after maghrib, almost everyday!!!! Luckily, the school is near to my house. Just a 15 mins walking distance.

And Alhmdulillah, all of it has been completed! Though I fall sick for the last two days... Huhu

But anyway, I am satisfied with my performance (though there are some shortcomings) as I get to see the
improved performance of my students.

It is something which money can't buy and cannot be describe in words. It is such a wonderful feeling. Mmmmm~

Ok, so that's about my work.

Now, back to my life.

I have been attending weddings for these past few weeks. 3 weddings altogether. One is my friend from uni, another 2 are my bestfriends. ^^

I am glad to see both of my bestfriends got married. Both of them have been there for me, since my Maahad year, until now. I have known their family members, and even some of their relatives! That is how close we are. Heeeee~

Then we got separated (physically) as we step into our career life. Time and distance has always been a challenge for us. However, we still hold on to each other and never let go. We would arrange for a meet up, we even managed to go for a trip together! Alhmdulillah, thank you Allah, for this wonderful friendship. ^^

By the way, I have just learnt something for these few days, which are:

- do not call people 'names' or give them specific characteristic, as you did not know the true story.

- it is better to be a busy Bee, rather than a busyBody. However, it is better to be not busy at all. Muahahaha...

الخطايا

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته...

كيف حالكم...؟ سأتكلم في هذه المرة باللغة العربية كاملا، إن شاء الله ^^

قبل ابدأ الكلام، أريد أن يشارك معكم عن الكلام جميل من [ ابن القيم ] عليه رحمة الله ..

وكل ابن آدم خطاء وخير الخطائين التوابون ..

فلابد من الخطأ ولابد من التقصير وكلنا ذوو خطأ .. لكن إياك أن تبقى على الخطأ ..

فلا بد علينا ان نستغفر من كل ذنب ونرجع الى الله بقلب سليم...

وأسأل الله ان يعطي القوة في صدورنا ويستقم إيماننا... آمين ^^

A Tribute

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh...

Waddup guys...!!! Hehehe. Tak penah-penah cakap waddup, tetiba hari ni nak cakap...

Ok, sebelum membebel panjang2, just wanna say that this entry will gonna be a 'rojak' one. I'm gonna mix some English & Malay. Sorry la cikgu-cikgu & teachers out there. I'm here to destroy the language system *evil laugh* k k gurau ^^

Alrite. As you guys can see at the title there, I put 'A Tribute'. Therefore I dedicated this entry for someone who is close to me, sometimes will be there for me (noted there: sometimes. Hahaha), share secrets & problems & all that friends usually do.

And he is none other than W. (mcm dah lama gitu tak sebut Nama dia kat blog ni).

Ok, mesti some of you wondering nape fadiah ni tetiba aje nak buat tribute kan? Selama ni tak appreciate ke?

Ah haaaaa... So here goes...

Actually fadiah tak ingat sgt dah berapa lama kte kenal. It has been like more than 5 years. I lost count when I met him. Teruk kaaaan?

Oh well, anyway that is just a number. The important part is the quality of the friendship & how well we connect.

Fadiah mengaku sejujurnya yang fadiah ni mmg tak pandai berkawan sgt. Kalau kawan gitu2, mmg ramai.,tp yang rapat, blh kira dgn jari. & W is one of them.

Masa mula2 kenal dia, mmg susah nak click. Kte selalu bebual merepek, suka buat lawak bods, abeh tu kita kalau cakap pasal org, then nanti mesti end up ketawakan org tu. terok betol perangai time tu. isy isy isy...

Kalau gaduh pulak, tak yah nak cakap la berapa byk kali. Mmg banyak sgt smpi tak terkira. Gaduh-baik-gaduh-baik... Mmg tu la keje kita. Hahaha...

But then as years goes by, we grew up, grew closer & mature together.

We share advices, experiences & knowledge together.

He has helped me a lot, though not all the time. But that's ok. Coz I understand where his priorities should be. ^^

He inspires me (dia tak tahu part ni. Shhhhh~) and sometimes knock some senses out of my head.

So, I would like to take this opportunity to THANK him for his patience, tolerance & kindness.

May Allah reward him with happiness in this life & the Hereafter.

Lastly, may this friendship last forever till jannah. InsyaAllah.



P/s: kalau W baca entry ni, mesti dia terharu smpi tertido kaaan? K k gurau. Hahaha...

Here. Now.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

This entry will gonna be a long one.

It has been a quite busy week for me. Well, at EVERY end of the month is a super duper busy week. Coz we will have to complete our given props for the circle time activities, as well as the Thematic Board (which we have to change it MONTHLY). 

So, that is just SOME of the tasks. (minus the marking, which all teachers have to do. Boo!)

But, regardless of all that jobs, I am still grateful for the life that I have right now. For the faith that I have. Knowing that my Creator is always there for me, is PRICELESS. For those wonderful people that I met throughout my life. For those sweet and bittersweet memories that I had. Alhmdulillah.

Recently, I received a very good news from Aussie. It is about 'the project' that was planned by my Aunt. 

I was told that the guy still not ready yet. Alhmdulillah sangat2!!! It is like a dream come true. Heeeeeeeeee~

Lesson learnt: Keep on hoping and praying. Allah will guide us along the way. 

Ok, next story is about the situation at my workplace. 

First: We have a new VP. She was one of the teachers too.  Since she has been appointed, we have detect some of the changes in her behavior. She was not as cheerful as before. She create a barrier as if she did not know us. She spent most of the time in her office. 

Apart from that, we do make her angry sometimes. Such as: did not finish the given task on time, did not perform the task properly and many more.

Second: There is a new teacher in my school. I have known her since my Uni years. We are just friend, but not that close. Since she has been working there, I heard a lot of complaints about her. 

ok pause. 

It is wrong to talk about others behind their back. But I cant help it. I need to change this.

ok continue. 

So people complained. Since then, I do not talk to her. But there are some few casual talks. It is just I do not want to be close to her anymore. I just need to make a barrier, cause I am the bad one here. 

Lesson learnt:

First; People CHANGE. One day, you might know them kind and friendly. But do not expect them to stay the same for the rest of their life. Unless they are the consistent ones.

Second; Do not talk behind others' back. It is a sin, Fadiah. If you don't like them, try to talk nicely to them but still treat them well. You dont have to be harsh. Yeah, I can be mean and harsh sometimes. I need to change that too.

So, that's it for now. I need to revamp my room coz I got free time now. Wuhuuuuuu~

Stay happy and smile always! ^^