Tuesday, September 29, 2009

EnD

For every beginning thing in this world, there will always be the end.

That goes the same for me.

After these 4 years, studying in IIUM, it will be the time for me to leave. SooN.

A lot of my friends kept reminding me on how many more months I left for me to stay here (IIUM). And for those who kept reminding me, I will scold them. Haha. So you don't have to remind me k...coz I will feel as if waiting for my day to die...Huhuhu...


So right now, I'm not going to think about all those leaving-IIUM-thing... I will just continue with my remaining life as student. I want to enjoy every moment of it.


And Right now, I am looking forward to ----> my friends' CONVOCATION and this SATURDAY. weeee~

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Speechless

Ibu n me ;)



Words are not enough to say what I feel right now...

Tomorrow I am going back to my Uni...

but before that,

there will be raye-visiting in Malacca...

I am So looking forward to meet my relatives...

Uni life will be resume again after 2 weeks of holidays...

And now,

Gotta go to sleep.

Gotta a loooog journey tomorrow.

See you guys in IIUM!!!!

Monday, September 21, 2009

When CREATIVITY Strikes

I just post an entry 5 minutes ago
then
decide to post another entry
because I cannot sleep and
does not know what to do...
huhuhu...

So this entry
just to show you
what happened when
my CREATIVE soul strikes...


Enjoy...



CARD 1




-Cover-


-Inside-


CARD 2

-Front- (upper view)


-Front- (zoom in view)


-Back- (upper view) *mcm kenal je kan?*



-Back- (zoom in view)


CARD 3

-Front-

-Back-


-Back- (zoom in)




OK

that's it for now.

There are also some items which
I forgot to take picture of it.

Never mind.
Goodnite everyone.
Lights Off....!



A thing about Rayer


As you all know that I am not in the mood for Rayer, therefore I won't be blogging anything about my Rayer celebration.

Right now, I cannot sleep after came back from the WHOLE day of RAYER visiting.

Sometimes I just felt that as a Malay Muslim, we took for granted of these ISLAMIC celebration. This Rayer thingy is more to CULTURAL celebration, rather than ISLAMIC celebration. AS a born Malay Muslim, that is how I felt sometimes. But when I put myself in a situation as a MUSLIM rather than a MALAY MUSLIM, I found that this celebration is meaningful when you are able to achieve some of the goals which you have set during Ramadhan.

Sorry to say this, but most of the Malay, they regarded this Eidulfitri as their OWN celebration. They have their Own tradition to celebrate this festival. They have their Rayer songs, foods etc.

You may say that the Arabs also might have their way to celebrate it. Yeah, but at least they are not as exaggerated as WE did. They did not celebrated it for the wHoLe Syawal, although they did the fastings for the WHOLE Ramadhan.

The question is: is Eidulfitri a celebration of faith or celebration of culture?

I may be a bit sarcistic. But I just could not help not to think about it. I do celebrate it, but not for the whole month. I did some house-visiting, in order to refresh our blood-relationship. As everybody would notice that nowadays, people are attached more to their friends, rather that relatives. And that includes ME!

Sometimes I am grateful that there is Syawal. I would always say this to myself:
"Nasib baik lah ada rayer...Kalau tak, mesti kita tak kenal sape sedara kita..."

I do not want to say that myself is all the goody-goody type, as I am NOT. But I really MISSED Ramadhan. *sigh*

Friday, September 18, 2009

Dream....


I had this WEIRD dream last night...

A dream of someone proposing to me as his wife...and the thing is I know HIM!!!!

And for your info, he is not W (it would be nice if it him) . Hahaha... I wish!

And this guy, who proposed to me in this dream is someone who I knew during my SECONDARY school years!

And one more funny thing, W was there, in the dream! He was there as the guy's friend, and yes, they also know each other in the REAL life.

WOoOooW...!

A really weird dream, huh?

It was soooo long and I think I had been married to him in the dream!

Haaah...luckily it was only a DREAM. I can't really imagine if it is real...

because:

the guy is someone whom I know and rarely speak to.

So, is this some kind of signs or just an empty dream?

I wonder....

Monday, September 14, 2009

Rayer....

WHAT IS RAYER?


This year, I didn't really feel the spirit of Rayer. I don't know why. Just not in the mood of celebration.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

My Last Iftar

It was Thursday.

Before go to my class, I pass by HS. Then, there he was, sitting by himself with his lappy. At first, I thought I did not want to talk to him, but then, I decided to greet him.

"Hye W..."

"Eh Fadiah...ko nak gi mana?"

"Aku ada class jap lagi..."

"Owh ok..."

"Ko sorang je?"

"A'ah la..."

"K la, nak gi class..."


Later, I received sms from him during class.

W: Ko nampak lain ar skrg. Dah makin lawa.

I: Pe sey. eh, ko lama tak kat HS? Ingat nak lepak ar pas class.

W: Boleh ar. Aku pun dah lama tak lepak dgn ko.

I: K, c u after class.



After class, I went to HS. There he was again. I sat in front of him.

"Fadiah, ko slalu buka katne?"

"Kat bilik ar...nape?"

"Jom la buka kat HS ptg ni. Dah lama tak buka dgn ko..."

"Alahh...malas ar. HEheh...eh, tapi boleh la. Petang nanti confirm kan lagi k..."

"OK..."


He confirmed with me. I also received messages from my adek2, asking me to join them for iftar. And I said YES.

And later that evening, we met up around 645. The moment I reached HS, it was already fully booked by which-ever-society it is...He was not there yet. I reached for my phone, thought of calling texting him...but then, there he was. The moment he arrived, my adek2 also came. His adek was also there. And some of them were surprised to see him with me. Whatever.

Finally, we settled at Basbussa (above HS)and altogether, there were 13 of us. All of them were juniors, except for me & W. hehe.. We talked and talked. W make a lot of jokes, kept me smile all the way.

There is one time which he told me that "Fadiah, aku sengaja ajak ko buka arini supaya bila last day ko iftar kat UIA, ko dgn aku..."

OK...wait. Stop there.

Betul ke apa yang aku dengar? and I just smiled =)

I had a lot of fun that evening. My adek2 was fun. They make me smile, make me laugh. As for W, he was indeed nice. I was like questioning and mula perasan yang bukan2, but then say this to myself: He just want to show his appreciation.

What a Memory!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

NEW!

OK TAK? OK TAK?

Actually tengah takde keja. HEhehe...
Actually ingat nak belajar, tapi tak jadi sebab dah stuck modify blog ni.

Hahaha

Countdown

Sarah, me and Jane


Another 2 more days to go....

and I'm going to Singapore.....! weeeee~

It's have been a looong time since I got back and this Friday will gonna be the first day I'm in Singapore for this year..!

Ok, did you notice something new @ my blog? Well, I've just updated some accessories to my blog...that are the Shoutout and my blog ist...heee~

I am new to this blogging thing, therefore it is hard for me to configure it out. I like it plain and simple. The most important thing that I got some space to express myself. Yeah, that's the real purpose for me to create this blog.

+ do Mind my Language. Sometimes I used English. Sometimes Malay. Sometimes Arabic. (as if...Hahaha). Sometimes ALL x))

I make mistakes because I am learning.

Ok, right now, I wanna go to sleep for a while because I did not sleep after solat Fajr just now. Later, I wanna study for my midterm this friday. Dah nak cuti pun ada midterm...Woooo~

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Mad





How do we want to know whether someone is mad with us?
When we asked, they said that they are OK.
But their action speaks the other way round.
They ignored us. Treat us differently.
So are they telling us the truth?







Sunday, September 6, 2009

Blood-related


Kakak with her sons


There are a lot of people who I missed right now...My siblings: my kakak and my lil Tall brother...

It has been soooooOOooOo Long that we gathered and be together. I think, it was in 2006. And now 3 years had past.

Since Kakak got married, I found that it is difficult to talk to her. Not because of her marriage, but somehow it is how she expressed when I shared with her some of my stories. I think it is because that some of our ideas are not the same. I know that I had changed. I am not as 'good' as the old me. During my past year, I could say that I am quite reserved and 'appeared' innocent. But in IIUM, I discovered my ReaL self. ALhamdulillah.

People think I have changed. But the truth is, this is the real me. The past, is not.

Let me share a bit about my past: After my secondary school years in Singapore, I continued my study in Malaysia. I enrolled to the one of Maahad Tahfiz AlQuran. "Did I typed wrongly?" Nope, you did saw it. Maahad Tahfiz. And of course, I did memorize the whole Quran. At first I think, because I want to...but now I realized, I memorized just for the sake of taking the exams. "Isy...isy...apa ni niat tak betul..." Yeah...I just realized it quite recently. But now, I started to revise my memorization. NOt because I have to, but I WANT to.

Ok, so the environment there is Islamic. for example, there is a board to separate between guys and girls in every classroom. There are no free mingling with the opposite gender. However, with such strict rules, there are still some problems. Of course la...as long as we are human, there will always be problem. But during that time, I never thought of that. Because I am too content with my environmment.

And I am too self-content. I think that I am good, nice, decent...but the truth is, I am not. I went into relationship with guys..I talked about people ad keep thinking that I am a goody-goody girl.

After graduated from that place, I further my study into IIUM. I discovered a lot. I met a lot of nice and fantastic people and learnt a lot of valuable lesson from them.

So can you see the difference?

I am just trying to be normal. Neither too good nor too bad. Just Me.






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via FoxyTunes

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Counting Days...


Me + Red Spec = That is SO NOT me



Right now, I'm counting days till the day for me to go back HOME. Weeeee~ And starting from today, just left 5 more days to go.....!

Can't wait....can't wait! HEheHe...

Yesterday, me had a GREAT day out with my adek2. We went to watch The Final Destination. The movie was ok-ok laaa...the ending can be predicted. The same ending as the previous final destinations' movie...The difference is only the part of how each character died. And to tell you the truth, I really enjoyed watching how they died. Crazy huh? HAHAHA...

Then, we do some window-shopping while waiting time to break our fast. After we have done enough walking, we went to Pizza Hut for our iftar. The meal was delicious especially the Masalla Pizza. I can still feel the taste right now (WOooOOI...puasa ar..!) hehehe

I really had fun and enjoyed the time with my juniors. They are fun to be with and really know how to entertain me. I just could forget all my problems when I am with them. Thanks ALLAH for letting me to get to know them...

Ok, wanna update a bit about my status. People kept asking me whether I am single or attached. And when I answered that I am single, they don't believe me. Hmmm...

And to tell you the truth, I really Enjoyed my SINGLE life, but lately, Im kinda getting sick of it. The urge of wanting to have someone special is always appear, but somehow, I manage to control it. Alhamdulillah.

Because, I DO believe that my other will appear soon...And I'm not going to stop Believing...

Oh ya...and about W,
he is HISTORY.

Starting from the moment I gave him that letter, things changed. He stop texting me..no more Goodnight or Good morning wishes...no more asking "Ko watpe, Fadiah?"...and I think, it is because of me. Cause there is one time where I asked him not to sms me, unless it is important. Well, I deserved that.

But during that time, I was pissed off with the finance...! He should've understand...hmmm...

But he is human, after all. Have feelings. And I always forget that.
So all are coming back to me.

I cannot blame him for my mistake. And I have to LET him GO. So, right now, I am struggling really hard to not to think about him. And it is NOT easy. REALLY.

I have to try.

It is really hard when you lose someone who is close to you. Therefore, appreciate and treasure them. That goes especially to ME.










Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Silence


SOmetimes moment of silent is the best moment of all....

And certain things are better left unsaid...

That are some motivational quotes as reinforcement for me to be quiet...

Since I lived in this world, I have done a lot of talking. And yes, we REALLY need to talk in order to make others understand us. However, sometimes too much of talking is also not good. And I've experienced that a LooooooooooooT...

I admit that I've make a lot of mistakes through talking and being loud. I am really and truly regret it. Because most people always could not handle the truth. They like to keep things to themselves rather that sharing it with others. Sometimes I am also like that. Therefore, I must try as hard as I can to know where and when I am supposed to voice out my opinion.

Luckily that I have this one assignment for the Psychology of Learning. It is called 'Behaviour Modification', where you have to choose one behaviour that you desired to change. And I believe that I really need to change myself in terms of my talkativeness.

Pray for me ya ;)