Friday, July 31, 2009

Looking for Love



Indeed, Life is full of surprises and unexpected things.

Now, I'm in my room...aLone... All my roomies have their own work and lucky me coz the internet connection is gOOd! weeee~

What did I do today?

Well....I done my FIRST group presentation for this semester. Alhamdulillah...and all went well. I was soooo relieved. And it is the first time in my life that I received praises for my presentation. All was prepared at the last minute though. And lucky us, because the lecturer is a nice guy and the topic is easy to understand. We did some interaction with the students by giving them some task - which is a role play - and it was done pretty well =) I was surprised with the cooperation that was given.

After class, I went back to do some laundry. Then received sms from Nuya, asked me to accompany her to OTK. To fulfill my boredom, I decided to accompany her. She bought the sticker 'P' for the license. Then we went to KFC to fill in our empty stomach. While eating, suddenly Nuya said "Eh, tu your kakak kan?" I looked and said "Yup...Jom jumpa dia..."
Luckily we had finished our meal. We went to meet with my sister, who with her second son. About a minute later, her husband and her first son came. We were like talking and exchanging stories. It was lucky and grateful to get the chance to meet her. This is because, ever since she worked, it was very hard to get her. I know that I could give her a call, but sometimes I'd rather sms her instead. I did not want to disturb her. really.

Then we went back. And in the bus, I sat beside a lady who talked with herself. It was scary, man! I recited all the prayers inside my heart and prayed for her to go down as soon as possible. While I was saying prayers in my heart, suddenly she touched me and asked "Beli apa tu?" I smiled ( + control my fear) and answered " Roti je..." It was like........reeeeally scary...huhu
For like a couple of hours like that, she asked me. What was she thinking before that? Hmmmm...

We reached the hostel around 7pm. Then decided to go to Jannah's room, to surprise her. When we arrived, she was not in her room. We used the opportunity to hide and the moment she came into her room, she was soooooo surprised to see us! Hehehe....


Ok...that's all for what happened for today. and right now, I got new mission in life: To Look for my other half. hehe...

And this time, it is FOR REAL. No more bluffing. No more jokes. No more beating around the bush.

Oh yeah, I just remembered. Last wednesday, I had a wonderful time with W.

The moment I met him, he said: "Fadiah, hari ni aku optimistic. Aku rasa aku akan jumpa jodoh aku hari ni." HAHAHA...I was amazed with his jokes. (I just had this feeling that it was a joke, although he do sounds serious). I had to use my lappy that time, so I find a table which has the plug connection near it.

Then he said "AKu rasa jodoh aku akan duduk kat tempat tu..." and he pointed an empty seat, in front of him, but on the table in front of us.

I smiled and said "Ok...kalau gitu, kita main game nak? Kalau budak yang duduk kat tempat tu, ko kenal, ko kena rapat dengan dia...Tapi kalau ko tak kenal, ko kena minta no h/p dia....ok?"

He replied "Ok...." with hesitation though. Hahaha. Then we wait and wait. Suddenly, there is this girl, wearing blouse and trousers, with haversack and glasses, came. She stood beside the empty chair, talking to her friend.

We waited and expected her to sit there. "Kalau dia duduk, habis la W..." I said that in my heart. Hehehe.... And lucky him coz she did not sit there.

About several minutes later, came a girl, wearing pink baju kurung and black scarf. She took her bag, which sat on the empty seat, then she sat down. I and W looked at one another. and immediately I said to him: "Ok W....you gotta ask her phone number..."

W looked at me and said "Alah fadiah....Tak nak la.... Dia mesti dah ade boyfriend nye..."

I was like "WTF ar ko ni! Mana boleh sey....tadi kan dah janji...Lagipun ko yang kata jodoh ko duduk pat situ..."

He replied "Hehehe...ok lah. Kalau gitu, dia jadi JTJ aku..."

I asked (looking confusing) "JTJ?"

He said "Jodoh Tak JAdi....!" and he laughed...I also laughed and we laughed so hard till tears came out from my eyes!

There were also a part where I found out that he got feelings for me. Hehehe. It goes like this:

He asked me to check his email for him. He gave his password, which is the name of the girl who he had relationship once. Then he told me that he will always use their name as his password. He said to himself "Nama ko ada tak eh?" while thinking....

I overheard him and immediately asked him "Ko penah suka aku ke?"

He blushed and tried to cover himself "Mana ada sey..." He changed the topic to something else.
He treated me during lunch time. We shared stories, jokes, opinions etc. It was like the best day ever with him. What a day! Thank you, W ;)

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Red ALERT!!!

REMINDER: Not to get excited over something easily.

Because, when I am excited, it is either I will talk a loooot or I will forget myself. Therefore, I cannot get excited.

Must prepare for the worst to happen. Always.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

best ever!

Lately, my feelings are changing...sometimes I felt sooo low that I can't even decide what I wanna do with my life...and sometimes I felt sooo great till I find that everything in this world is wonderful...

I thought that I could be strong by myself, but I can't. I still need my GOD and some friends to help me go through with my life....

And again, I cannot lie to myself. He is always there for me, although not most of the time. But he is there. My wingman aka bestfriend----> W.

He might not notice how much I appreciate him, because I've never ever expressed my true feeling towards him. He is all I need for this time being. Always be with me, try to understand me, be patient with my stupid questions and the unpredictable behaviour... He is so kind to me, in a sense that he never scold or get angry with me. I was amazed with his kindness. He will advised me and supported me whenever I need it. He will always cover for all my flaws and always try not to hurt me. Wonderful isn't it?

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

What sucks?

I do not know why, but this feeling keeps appearing in my heart...

The feeling of avoiding someone and just get him out of my life...

But I know, avoidance is not the way out....it is not the answer...

Sunday, July 19, 2009

L. I. F. E

Hidup ini perjuangan....
Dan tiada kesenangan di dalam berjuang.

Be strong, Fadiah! =)





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Now playing: Hijjaz - Lukisan Alam
via FoxyTunes

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Choices again....

A friend came to me with a situation and asked for my opinion....

Here is the situation:

A guy who is in a relationship with a girl, let us named her G...then he befriended with another girl named H. Time passed and he got closer to H, although he was in a serious relationship with G. He and H shared a lot of stuffs + secrets. They have mutual understanding and good chemistry between them. Suddenly, without his awareness, the feeling blossomed into love.

When he realized of his own feeling, he got confused. He does not know whether to continue with his relationship with G, or getting into relationship with H. And another thing which makes his confused that H was no longer a virgin. She slept with 4-5 men before. On the other hand, G is a virgin.

And my opinion was:

The guy have to know that whatever he decide to choose will affect his life. People who got tto choose between good and bad, usually will go for the good one. But there are also who go for the bad one. because people are indeed different. Therefore, whatever choices he make, he must be ready to face the consequences. Think wisely and do not follow his heart because heart and feelings indeed can change.

I pray the best for him.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Square One

Wherever you are in this world or no matter how far you go, you will always back to the One and only Lord, the Most Gracious and Merciful...

He is the One who will always be us, no matter what.

Although most of the time, we tend to forget Our creator, He will never ever forget us. Although we ran as far as we could away from Him, He will never ever leave us. because He is Our Lord. He would never abandon us because He is the Most Merciful. If our sins are as wide as the sea, He will forgive us, as long as we are truthful and sincere. Just look on how merciful our Lord is. He still gives oxygen and the ability to live to those who disbelieve Him.

Ponder and think. We will find Him. InsyaAllah.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

TriaLs

*Sick*
*Lost*
*Alone*
*Broken-heaRted*
*Back-Stabbed*
*Bankrupt*


And when all these happened, there will always be the One Who will stay with you forever...HE is The ONE...

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Grateful

Some may want things that they could not get, but some may do not want things that they already have...is it so hard to be grateful?

And yes, sometimes I find that it is hard. because I am also like that.

I do not like to have many attention. Today, I went out with my girlfrenz and I informed my mom that I'm gonna be back a little bit late, around 9-10 pm. Then she asked me a lot of questions: why..with who..etc... I was pissed off for a while. But then I realized something. There were people who did not get like what I got right now. Some are cRAVe for attention that they are willing to do anything, in order to get attention from people..and yet myself, are not grateful enough for the attention that I got. Hmmm...

Then, I keep telling myself...those attention showed that they care for you...and yes, they really care for me to the extend that sometimes I am sick of it...

Welcome to my Life, peeps =)