Recently I read this book and I'm in lurve with it. hehehe
The synopsis: Story about 2 human being searching for themselves. A girl came from rich family but lack of attention and love from her family. And a boy who came from an average family but were hold back from chasing his dream. And on a rooftop, they were met. Shared and changed things in their lives without they realize it.
My favorite snip from the book:
Trisy's 10 Line Spillage:
1. It's much easier to spill to a stranger, spares the stigma and the judgment. (TRUE!)
2. It's much easier to be understood by someone who has been there and does that. (INDEED IT IS TRUE!)
3. Everybody has skeletons in their closet. (ASK URSELF K...)
4. I don't say "take a bit from my plate, chew, telan then talk" for no reason.
5. Reality hurts, truth bites, living kills, today tortures and yesterdays are just as bad, what else's new? The only comfort is knowing we're proudly smart enough to live life the way we want it, though others will never fail to try to screw it for us, we prove them wrong. Again and again. (YEAH>>>THAT'S WHY IT IS CALLED STRUGGLE)
6. A friend can be a good psychologist, but sometimes I doubt it vise versa.
7. Psychiatrist + docs + meds = bittersweet vendetta. (LOL)
8. There are times when we want to be vulnerable though how thick skinned we appear.
9. Believing in God's love, live on bcause of His Love, nothing can beat that, I know you'd agree. (TOTALLY!)
10. They have no idea what I understand from the word 'mirror'. Because I hate what I see looking back at me.
Great isn't it?
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
RizQ
When one doors closed, another door will open for you....that is rizQ...
This morning, I received an sms from IIUM...stating about a job offer...I called them back and got to know that they want it as soon as possible....
I was like...WTH...so I just pass it...
They want it quick and I was having my holidays in S'pore + teaching my aunt + attending some weddings...and why in the world should I go back to IIUM? just for the matter of this job? It is not worth at all...
After the conversation, I called W...just to share with him the story...
At first, he was surprised to receive call from me...It was unexpected...hehe
Then I shared with him about the job offer...and he said: "Alah fadiah...ko keja dgn aku sudah..."
Hahaha...I had a great laugh with him. Did not talk much. He was too excited to get a chance to talk with me. hehe.
Well, it seems that it is going to be hard for me to leave him...Haiz...
This morning, I received an sms from IIUM...stating about a job offer...I called them back and got to know that they want it as soon as possible....
I was like...WTH...so I just pass it...
They want it quick and I was having my holidays in S'pore + teaching my aunt + attending some weddings...and why in the world should I go back to IIUM? just for the matter of this job? It is not worth at all...
After the conversation, I called W...just to share with him the story...
At first, he was surprised to receive call from me...It was unexpected...hehe
Then I shared with him about the job offer...and he said: "Alah fadiah...ko keja dgn aku sudah..."
Hahaha...I had a great laugh with him. Did not talk much. He was too excited to get a chance to talk with me. hehe.
Well, it seems that it is going to be hard for me to leave him...Haiz...
Friday, June 26, 2009
C. H. O. I. C. E. S.
To live hell or live well ----> You choose.
In life, most of the things that appeared to us involved choices. And in making choices, it is important for us to choose wisely.
I have made some wrong choices, therefore I decided from this very moment, I'm going to try make some good and wise choices. InsyaAllah....
Last few days, I have been busy teaching Qur'anic recitation with my aunty...She was amazing, MasyaAllah... At first, I thought that her Qur'anic recitation skill is weak...but then, I discovered that her reading was quite good...only her pronunciation and speed need to be improved.
Besides teaching. I also got the opportunity to meet with my old2 frens. They are still doing well and standing strong. MasyaAllah....unlike me, who always faced with doubts and confusion. The chance to meet with them is such a blessing for me. If I did not meet them, I would not realize something....and now, thanks to Allah for all His blessings and wills.
I realized that I have lost something that is so valuable to me ----> the blessings of Allah and fear towards Him.
I do not want to sound like a pious person, however this is the fact that I faced. No one, but me.
I was too busy in finding the perfect man for me, thus I forgot to seek help from Him. HE always there for me. Waiting for me to find Him. However, I am too arrogant and proud of myself. I forgot everything about Him, whereas He never ever forget me.
And whenever I got to know with someone, I forgot to thank Him. I based all the results on my actions and effort....and indeed, when the effort is empty, so will the result be.
From now on, I will try my best to be a good muslimah. InsyaAllah.
I do not want to get something which I want, but I want things that I NEED. Allah knows what best for me. So I will rest my future in His hand. but this does not mean that I gave up on trying. NO. I will try, strive, struggle and grab for the best. I wanted to GIVE more and more. Because that is what life is all about.
and one of the important choices which I made today: not to get involved with Guys anymore. Friends = yes. More than friends = NO.
You may find me boring. Sued me. but I am not gonna move as that is my decision. If there is someone out there for me, he will appear one day. I believed that. InsyaAllah.
One more thing, I have to build a wall between me and W. It is for my own good. So the construction will begin next semester. Hopefully.
Ok la...I gotta go to bed coz I have to get up at 230. Going to the airport, to send off my cousin.
and...yeah. A recent news stated today that the king of POP, Michael Jackson, have his eternal sleep forever, or in another word, he died..hehe
Well, seems like people keep going to meet with the Lord...and I am still waiting for my time.
May Allah bless YOu!
In life, most of the things that appeared to us involved choices. And in making choices, it is important for us to choose wisely.
I have made some wrong choices, therefore I decided from this very moment, I'm going to try make some good and wise choices. InsyaAllah....
Last few days, I have been busy teaching Qur'anic recitation with my aunty...She was amazing, MasyaAllah... At first, I thought that her Qur'anic recitation skill is weak...but then, I discovered that her reading was quite good...only her pronunciation and speed need to be improved.
Besides teaching. I also got the opportunity to meet with my old2 frens. They are still doing well and standing strong. MasyaAllah....unlike me, who always faced with doubts and confusion. The chance to meet with them is such a blessing for me. If I did not meet them, I would not realize something....and now, thanks to Allah for all His blessings and wills.
I realized that I have lost something that is so valuable to me ----> the blessings of Allah and fear towards Him.
I do not want to sound like a pious person, however this is the fact that I faced. No one, but me.
I was too busy in finding the perfect man for me, thus I forgot to seek help from Him. HE always there for me. Waiting for me to find Him. However, I am too arrogant and proud of myself. I forgot everything about Him, whereas He never ever forget me.
And whenever I got to know with someone, I forgot to thank Him. I based all the results on my actions and effort....and indeed, when the effort is empty, so will the result be.
From now on, I will try my best to be a good muslimah. InsyaAllah.
I do not want to get something which I want, but I want things that I NEED. Allah knows what best for me. So I will rest my future in His hand. but this does not mean that I gave up on trying. NO. I will try, strive, struggle and grab for the best. I wanted to GIVE more and more. Because that is what life is all about.
and one of the important choices which I made today: not to get involved with Guys anymore. Friends = yes. More than friends = NO.
You may find me boring. Sued me. but I am not gonna move as that is my decision. If there is someone out there for me, he will appear one day. I believed that. InsyaAllah.
One more thing, I have to build a wall between me and W. It is for my own good. So the construction will begin next semester. Hopefully.
Ok la...I gotta go to bed coz I have to get up at 230. Going to the airport, to send off my cousin.
and...yeah. A recent news stated today that the king of POP, Michael Jackson, have his eternal sleep forever, or in another word, he died..hehe
Well, seems like people keep going to meet with the Lord...and I am still waiting for my time.
May Allah bless YOu!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
A Secret Lesson
When we meet someone new, there will always be something that we could learn from them.
And yes, I did learnt a loooooooT from every guy that I know...and the thing that I learnt is that LESSONS ABOUT GUYS.
And this lesson are not being teach in any schools...but it is being learnt in life...
Things that I grabbed from some of my guyfrens are as listed:
W: Do not trust guy easily - It is hard for guys to express what they really feel - MOST guys like girls based on their looks (not all, but mostly) - They are unpredictable - their EGO is their bestfriend *winks* - Girls will go for guys who got cash and career (REaLLy?)
M: When the man is not honest with you, just forget him - They will always try to win your heart but never know how to treasure it
Based on what I had learnt, I managed to get alot from W rather than M....Mayb because W is my wingman, while M is just someone who I fell with once upon a time ago... And I admit that I am much more close to W than M....and I think that is why M decided to let me go after I shared some stories about W....hmmm...well that is a mistake which I really learnt!
And yes, I did learnt a loooooooT from every guy that I know...and the thing that I learnt is that LESSONS ABOUT GUYS.
And this lesson are not being teach in any schools...but it is being learnt in life...
Things that I grabbed from some of my guyfrens are as listed:
W: Do not trust guy easily - It is hard for guys to express what they really feel - MOST guys like girls based on their looks (not all, but mostly) - They are unpredictable - their EGO is their bestfriend *winks* - Girls will go for guys who got cash and career (REaLLy?)
M: When the man is not honest with you, just forget him - They will always try to win your heart but never know how to treasure it
Based on what I had learnt, I managed to get alot from W rather than M....Mayb because W is my wingman, while M is just someone who I fell with once upon a time ago... And I admit that I am much more close to W than M....and I think that is why M decided to let me go after I shared some stories about W....hmmm...well that is a mistake which I really learnt!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Insomnia
The result of not being able to sleep right now...
I was being tagged by my friend on FB but then, instead of replying on FB, I decided to post it on my blog...
All the following answers are the truths...nothing but the truth...and yes, truth hurts.
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: plain water
2. Last phone call: Ayah
3. Last text message: with my girl ---> Siti.
4. Last song you listened to: All or Nothing by O Town.
5. Last time you cried: last night.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope
7. Been cheated on: nope
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope
9. Lost someone special: yup
10. Been depressed: yup
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Blue
13. Black
14. White
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yup
16. Fallen out of love: Yup
17. Laughed until you cried: Yup
18. Met someone who changed you: Yup
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yup
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yup
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yup
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: many
23. How many kids do you want to have: any numbers will do
24. Do you have any pets: Nope
25. Do you want to change your name: Nope
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Pray to be a better person in future
27. What time did you wake up today: 9 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: watched a movie titled "The Wedding Date".
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my degree in psychology
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 4 hours ago~
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my financial situation
32. What are you listening to right now: Drowning from BSB
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: TOMbak ke? WTH...
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: niL
35. Most visited webpage : blogger.com
36. Whats your real name: Siti Nurfadiah
37. Nicknames: Fad, Diah, Ned, Nur...
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Elementary?: Madrasah Alsagoff
42. Middle School?: alsagoff
43. High school/college?: Maahad Tahfiz al-Quran wal Qiraat
44. Hair colour: Black
45. Long or short: Medium
46. Height: 1.4m
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Nope
48: What do you like about yourself?: left-handed
50. Tattoos: Nope
51. Righty or lefty: Lefty
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Nil
53. First piercing: ear
54. First best friend: Nadia
55. First sport you joined: captain-ball
56. First vacation: Malaysia
58. First pair of trainers: Reebok
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: niL
60. Drinking: NiL
61. I'm about to: sleep
62. Listening to: "If I were a Boy" by Beyonce
63. Waiting on: to be able to sleep
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: Yup
65. Get Married?:Yup
66. Career?: Knowledge seeker
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: nope
77. Drank hard liquor: nope
78. Lost glasses/contacts: nope
79. Sex on first date: nope
80. Broken someone's heart: nope
82. Been arrested: nope
83. Turned someone down: yup
84. Cried when someone died: yup
85. Fallen for a friend?: yup
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yup
87. Miracles: yup
88. Love at first sight: nope
89. Heaven: yup
90. Santa Claus: nope
91. Kiss on the first date: nope
92. Angels: yup
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nope
95. Did you sing today?: Yup
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: During my secondary school years...
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: the day that I did something stupid...
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: nope
100. Posting this as 100 truths? Yup
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Game Over
Hola peeps...
Have been a while since i updated my blog....well, just finished my exam for this semester. Hip hip hooray!
But still can't decide what to do next...
Hmmm...let me see, i think i want to finish all the muvees that have been occupying my lappy for months!
I cannot go back home coz I have some things to settle and I am too lazy to pack my belongings and throw them in the storeroom! Waaaah...for every semester, we have to do that over and over again...why can't they just invent a system which does not required us to move around or up and down...huhu
Ok, back to my life....
Right now, there is nothing new. Last week, one of my kakak sdare get married. It was a tiring week. After sooooo long of no weddings to help, then that week is most tiring ever!
The solemnization was on Saturday so the preparation began on Friday. I helped out for the bride's room, then do some flower arragements, help to bring things up and down the house. The house located at the 10th storey, while the makan2 place is at the void deck of the opposite block. So you could imagine of how tiring it was...but I was so happy so I forgot that it was quite troublesome and the tiredness I felt after the event! huhuhu...
During the event, I met a looooot of my relatives. It was fun, really. And there is one significant question that kept asking me again and again...
"Dyah bila lagi?"
well... that is for me to find and for you to guess...
Adios peeps ;)
Have been a while since i updated my blog....well, just finished my exam for this semester. Hip hip hooray!
But still can't decide what to do next...
Hmmm...let me see, i think i want to finish all the muvees that have been occupying my lappy for months!
I cannot go back home coz I have some things to settle and I am too lazy to pack my belongings and throw them in the storeroom! Waaaah...for every semester, we have to do that over and over again...why can't they just invent a system which does not required us to move around or up and down...huhu
Ok, back to my life....
Right now, there is nothing new. Last week, one of my kakak sdare get married. It was a tiring week. After sooooo long of no weddings to help, then that week is most tiring ever!
The solemnization was on Saturday so the preparation began on Friday. I helped out for the bride's room, then do some flower arragements, help to bring things up and down the house. The house located at the 10th storey, while the makan2 place is at the void deck of the opposite block. So you could imagine of how tiring it was...but I was so happy so I forgot that it was quite troublesome and the tiredness I felt after the event! huhuhu...
During the event, I met a looooot of my relatives. It was fun, really. And there is one significant question that kept asking me again and again...
"Dyah bila lagi?"
well... that is for me to find and for you to guess...
Adios peeps ;)
Saturday, June 6, 2009
On Hold
Feeling. This feeling. Why can't I get rid of this stupid feeling?
When something good happened, there will always something bad will either stop it or just interfere with it...why is that so?
I tried to forget him, let go of him, but somehow, this feeling will always keep coming back... perhaps i should try harder...yes, perhaps...
When something good happened, there will always something bad will either stop it or just interfere with it...why is that so?
I tried to forget him, let go of him, but somehow, this feeling will always keep coming back... perhaps i should try harder...yes, perhaps...
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
And yes...
...he was there for me =) (plus YOu...you know who you are *winks*)
People would always say that friend in need is a friend indeed...however, sometimes we just need someone that is right and at the right place.
When one people gone, another will come to us. As for that someone, W, was there for me last night. Listening to the unfortunate story of mine... then slowly he gave me some advices...
"Always learn from mistakes, Fadiah... Whatever had happened are the past. You must face your phobia so that you will know whether you still had that phobia or not...."
And yes, it is true.
About the other guy, he was silent as usual. I gave him my last sms yesterday. I apologized to him for all my wrong-doings and I tell him that I will not disturb him anymore. And that's it.
Things are just soooo vague between us. It is just impossible to continue something which are clearly unclear...I've tried my best. and yes...It's time to move on...
People would always say that friend in need is a friend indeed...however, sometimes we just need someone that is right and at the right place.
When one people gone, another will come to us. As for that someone, W, was there for me last night. Listening to the unfortunate story of mine... then slowly he gave me some advices...
"Always learn from mistakes, Fadiah... Whatever had happened are the past. You must face your phobia so that you will know whether you still had that phobia or not...."
And yes, it is true.
About the other guy, he was silent as usual. I gave him my last sms yesterday. I apologized to him for all my wrong-doings and I tell him that I will not disturb him anymore. And that's it.
Things are just soooo vague between us. It is just impossible to continue something which are clearly unclear...I've tried my best. and yes...It's time to move on...
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
New Leaf
Salam Peeps...
WhaT a BraNd and FreSh new Day!
That is what I feel from the moment I woke up from my sleep =)
I do not know why....but I just feel grateful for being alive!!!!
SOunds funny, rite? Well, sometimes you does not know why you feel something even though you tried to find some causes to your feeling....
Even though there are so many problems rite now in my mind, I still feel happy..Alhamdulillah...
And now, I'm gonna put myself first in everything that I do...
I want to take my sweet old time that I've missed...
I do not want to burden myself with all these uncertainties...
And most of all, I want to stop blogging about these crappy guyfrens...hehehe
But if there's anything juicy, I'll definitely update...don't worry k...
YOU will be the first one to know *winks*
Ok then, gotta go... I have class to attend....
Sayonara =)
WhaT a BraNd and FreSh new Day!
That is what I feel from the moment I woke up from my sleep =)
I do not know why....but I just feel grateful for being alive!!!!
SOunds funny, rite? Well, sometimes you does not know why you feel something even though you tried to find some causes to your feeling....
Even though there are so many problems rite now in my mind, I still feel happy..Alhamdulillah...
And now, I'm gonna put myself first in everything that I do...
I want to take my sweet old time that I've missed...
I do not want to burden myself with all these uncertainties...
And most of all, I want to stop blogging about these crappy guyfrens...hehehe
But if there's anything juicy, I'll definitely update...don't worry k...
YOU will be the first one to know *winks*
Ok then, gotta go... I have class to attend....
Sayonara =)
Monday, June 1, 2009
Something + sometimes + someone =)
Hola Peeps...
In life, there will always be something which beyond our expectation happened...
Just now, i had a short chat with one of my guy friends...i've mentioned him before in some of my previous posts...and frankly speaking, I am quite closed with 3 guys right now...and all of them still are full of questions and answers....
Ok, so back to the chatting thing...I saw him online on YM so I greet him...here are a bit of our conversation:
me: salam awak!
him: salam.
me: apa kabar? awak tengah keja ke?
him: khabar baik. haah.
me: sori ganggu.
him: tidak mengapa. bila exam?
me: 17 june. cepat kan? awak tak cuti ke?
him: Saya dapat keja kat penang. Mayb pertengahan bulan ni kena lapor diri.
me: Alhamdulillah. bagus la. dekat dgn family awak. keja apa tu?
him: production executive. tu lar dekat dgn family. tapi lagi jauh dgn awk. huhu
me: eleh...takpe la jauh di mata. hehe... awak, keja tu buat pe?
him: ok awak...saya ada keja nak wat.
he signed out. I was like....WTH. he is a guy which is full of questions and it is really hard to figure it out. what does is mean when he says "...lagi jauh dgn awak..."? It was like there is something that have to do with the distance which apart us...
I did not care to consider about him until he said like dis. hmmm....
And about the other guy, things are quite neutral a bit. Alhamdulillah....he contacted me back only that we want to give some times to ourselves. We have clear things out. I hope that Allah will show me the way to my one and only guy...I'm sick and tired with all these questions and game...
Hmmm....
In life, there will always be something which beyond our expectation happened...
Just now, i had a short chat with one of my guy friends...i've mentioned him before in some of my previous posts...and frankly speaking, I am quite closed with 3 guys right now...and all of them still are full of questions and answers....
Ok, so back to the chatting thing...I saw him online on YM so I greet him...here are a bit of our conversation:
me: salam awak!
him: salam.
me: apa kabar? awak tengah keja ke?
him: khabar baik. haah.
me: sori ganggu.
him: tidak mengapa. bila exam?
me: 17 june. cepat kan? awak tak cuti ke?
him: Saya dapat keja kat penang. Mayb pertengahan bulan ni kena lapor diri.
me: Alhamdulillah. bagus la. dekat dgn family awak. keja apa tu?
him: production executive. tu lar dekat dgn family. tapi lagi jauh dgn awk. huhu
me: eleh...takpe la jauh di mata. hehe... awak, keja tu buat pe?
him: ok awak...saya ada keja nak wat.
he signed out. I was like....WTH. he is a guy which is full of questions and it is really hard to figure it out. what does is mean when he says "...lagi jauh dgn awak..."? It was like there is something that have to do with the distance which apart us...
I did not care to consider about him until he said like dis. hmmm....
And about the other guy, things are quite neutral a bit. Alhamdulillah....he contacted me back only that we want to give some times to ourselves. We have clear things out. I hope that Allah will show me the way to my one and only guy...I'm sick and tired with all these questions and game...
Hmmm....
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