BlameS

Assalamualaikum

If you wanna blame others, I do rather takes that blame and put it on ME.

It is a bit weird when people started blaming others for THEIR own faults.



I have been doing a lot of thinking lately...

What is the benefit of blaming others?

Do you REALLY satisfied after you blame other people?

I said this, does NOT means that I do NOT blame others...well, sometimes I dO. AS human, we will always do. but then, when we reached to a certain LIMIT, we will start thinking.

Why do I have to blame others when I am the ONE who decided everything?

Others may have effect on you, but YOU are the one who decide whether want to be affected or not.

Bcoz it is YOUR feelings and it is YOURSELF.

If something happened out of your expectation, take times to calm yourself. Then MOVE ON.

After all, if it is MEANT TO BE, it is MEANT to be. Even without any helps from anyone.

Only ALLAH knows the best ;)

Cheers people!

19 years & beyond...

Assalamualaikum

I feel happy today! Alhamdulillah =) I got the chance to meet some of my wonderful friends...And most of all, I got to meet with Nadia, my 'oldest' friend in this world...

We have been friend since primary One, that is when I was like 7 years old...and up till now (please do the math on your own), we still keep in touch and shared our vision and series of our lives...Hehehe...

Me & Nad

She is such a wonderful friend...who will always willing to listen to my ramblings and annoying comments, will always hear my stories and tell her amusing stories. And I really find that MOST of her stories are amazing! She is funny and adorable. Never fail to make me laugh. Always concern about my current situation and even willing to help me in finding for me a future husband! Great isn't it? Heeee~

May ALLAH grant her happiness in this life and the hereafter. Ameeen...

Ok, besides meeting with her, I went for the solemnization of one of my former schoolmates, Susie...The event was simple and one of the best thing is that: it was held in a MOSQUE! It is one of my dream to do my solemnization in a mosque too! =)

Below are some of the captured moments:

The Shy Bride

The Calm Groom

The Excited Girl

The Great Sister

After that, we went to Swensens for some chillax moment...

Rabiul & DaLiLah

Khudaijah & me

The Burning Waiter
The Fondue *YummY*

So we sat there for like an hour and doing some story-telling and updates. Nadia told us about the incident about the late 'Giant' who passed away in Cairo. It is like a wake up call for me after hearing to such stories.

This life, I have been taking it for granted. Always procrastinating things that are important and pursue things that are not even worth at all...

But now, Alhamdulillah...after that night, I realized that I have to be strong. I will not going to bother about my love life anymore. This may sounds wrong. Ok, let me put it correctly. I will think about it, but not going to emphasize on it anymore. Previously, I put too much concern into it. Always worried, concerned and whatever la. but now, I will try to be strong. and when the right person comes, I will tie the knot. InsyaAllah =)

All these things will go along the way. But right now, I will have to do important things which I have been neglected for the past few years...such as, purifying my heart and soul. I want to reconnected with my Creator. so that when the time come for me to face him, I can face him in a good condition. I do not want to face HIM in a bad condition. because HE had created in a good condition. Therefore, I will have to return to HIM in that way too.

I know that it will not be an easy way. Therefore I am asking duaa (prayers) from you =)

I pray the best for all of you too, my lovely readers! Jazakumullah khair. May Allah bless!

So Far...

Assalamualaikum

Today I have just completed my training...Finally, Alhamdulillah.

It had been 4 days of training, then next Monday will soon be the General Meeting and I will gonna start my career OFFICIALLY on Tuesday. Wuhooo...I can't wait!

I know that it will be tiring, stressful, exhausted etc. but somehow I POSITIVELY feel that I am going to enjoy it more...

Ok, so you wanna know what I am doing for my career rite now?

Well, I apply as Kindergarten Teacher in HANIS Montessori..It was unexpected for me to get the job actually... The story was like this: During one of my IIUM senior's wedding, I saw Sya spec and asked her if there is any job vacancy at her work, do tell me. Then she told me to email my resume to her boss...So I did as what she told me.

Then a week after dat, I received a phonecall, asking me to go for an interview in Tampines. I went for the interview, and was quite suprised to find that the one who going to interview me is one of my schoolmate! Waaaah...I was thinking that it is gonna be easy but I kept it at the professional level.

And so, I got the job. Alhamdulillah. I was relieved. I did not expect so much although the job had always be one of my DREAM JOB. Some people may find it stupid and say "Why must you want to be a kindergarten teacher, after you went for your degrees?"

And this is what I am going to answer: "I will go for what I like to do. I have passion for it. So I am going to do it."

Wish me luck, people. And I know that it is gonna be hard but FUN. Heeee~

Little Things

Assalamualaikum

When you are enjoying the little things in your life, you will feel happier than ever...Alhamdulillah...

That is what I felt for these past few days...

I have started my first full-time work...but not exactly the working part. I have just started the training part. It is fun, but sometimes I do get bored...but most of the time, I enjoyed! heeee~

There is a lot of things that I have learnt and I got to meet with new people! yeay! hehehe...

I enjoyed meeting them and although I know that I may not be close to them, I am grateful to get to know them. However, I DO miss my friends and adek2 in IIUM...but life have to go on... When I chatted or talked with them, I will tell them how I missed them so much, shared with them my stories and so on....

I will always enjoy the smallest things in my life and I am grateful to have them. Thank you Allah...

I wanna share with you about my current working place, but got no time. Mayb later k.
So, remember this: Enjoy the small things in your life. You will never gonna regret! ;)

Take care people =)

First Step

Assalamualaikum

At first, when I finished my studies in IIUM, I thought that I have done learning... I dont want to learn anymore...

But instead, I realized that learning is a life-long journey...you will learn as long as you are breathing and walking on this earth...

And that is what I am doing right now...

Learning...not working =)

As My Age Added...

Assalammualaikum

Just came back from a concert...It was indeed great and fun! I will post the pic later k...

Today, is my 26th birthday, but somehow I couldnt feel anything different at all....

I remembered that I heard someone said: "On your birthday, the first person who you should thank is your MOTHER. Bcoz of her struggle and hardship, you are born in this world."

And through this opportunity, I would like to thanks my MOM and DAD bcoz they will NEVER stop believe in me. Although sometimes (or most of the time) I am stubborn, arrogant etc. , I didnt mean it. I acted like that due to my stupidity and lack of maturity. And deep deep deep down in my heart, I love You both more than anyone else in this world.

Ayah, Ibu & Nenek

and most of all,

Thank YOu Allah for giving me such a wonderful parent!

Hati & yang sewaktu dengannya

Assalammualaikum


Kadang2 ada mata, tapi tak nampak

Kadang2 ada telinga, tapi tak dengar

Kadang2 ada hati, tapi tak rasa

Mungkin kerana diri ini JAUH dari Tuhan

Sebab itu tak dapat nak nampak, dengar dan rasa dgn BETOL



Aku bertanya pada seorang teman:

"Macam mana kita nak lupakan orang ye?"

Dia menjawab:

"Berbual dgn Tuhan, kak. Minta tolong dgn DIA. Sebab hanya DIA yang boleh bantu kuatkan diri kita."


Betul la.

AKu jauh dari Tuhan.

Tapi kini aku kembali.

Sudikah KAU menerima ku? :_(

Rindulaaaah...

Assalammualaikum

Woke up quite early bcoz mum wanna go to work. And I had a lot of things to do today. Besides continuing my room make-over, I have to meet Syu to collect my ticket for the Malam Kebudayaan Islam. OMG. I cant wait. Seriously. I has been playing inside my mind, to see my adek2 perform again...All the best, adek2 ku =)

And rite now, IDK why I am missing badly these two little rascals....wohoooo...

Abdullah


Abd Aziz

Their innocent faces and smile...

Their charming characteristics...

Their naughty and cheeky way to get your attention....

I missed them so badly!

ok...

and yeah, Last night at slept around 2am and when I woke up this morning, I realised that someone just texted me, wishing me Good night at 245 am (like, 2 in the morning?) It is suppossed to be morning not night, rite? ok, whatever lah...

That someone is....W.

Hhmmmmm.....

I tot I said goodbye to him already. *wondering*

New LeaF

Assalamualaikum

What did I do today?

I stayed home and unpacked my boxes, re-organized my wardrobe and decorated my room! Yeay!
Below are the result of my hard work..haha

BEFORE

AFTER

So what do you think? Nice rite? *perasan*

Dis tyme around, I wanna make my room feel like a princess...I wanna decorate it more and more, but will have to wait for more cash to come in first...no money how can decorate ma? *see, I write also like singlish now*

HAhaha...

And just like my room, I am also emerging into a new person...

Today is the 1st of Muharram... I am not changing bcoz of this maal hijrah thingy...but bcoz I want to...

Bye-bye MY PAST

Bye-bye IIUM

Bye-bye W

And Hello Future ;)

Owh and hello to my adek2 and girlfrens...u gurls will always remain forever *muacks*

Mistakes

Assalamualaikum...

"Mistakes are proof that we are trying..."


"Do not called it mistake but called it an experience..."


There are sooooo many things that people do just to make others feel good about themselves after they have done something which is wrong....

Just like myself.

After we did something that is wrong, we will always said this to ourselves:

Never mind. It is just a mistake. Everybody make mistakes. Try not to repeat it again.

But somehow, we will repeat it sooner or later. UNLESS we are truly regret it and promise to ourselves (which is a REAL promise) not to repeat it eventhough we will have to die by not doing it.

I have done sooooooooooo many mistakes throughout the 25 years of my life...

And there are some mistakes which I really really really regret it, and there are some which I enjoyed not really regret, but I have my OWN reason of doing it...

Do I sounds evil?

I hope not, coz I am not evil. I am just being myself.

And again, there are some mistakes which I did it on purpose just for the sake of learning....

I do not actually bother what others wanna say, coz whatever it is, all are depends on ME.

I am the one who can really decide whether I want to be good or bad, innocent or daredevil, liar or sincere etc.

Others may have the power to influence me. but I have the right to decide.

And yes, later in the hereafter, when I will be asked on my past actions during my life... I am the one who will answer it.

Coz I do not want to blame others. After all, I am responsible for everything that happened it my life.

And YOU, just sit back and enjoy the ShoW. Thank You =)

Irreplaceable

Assalammualaikum

Right now, I'm in IIUM.

Coming here with the intention to finish up my driving license and clear my financial issue. Been here for 6 days already.

I had my driving test on Wednesday. I passed but the hill & parking part, but have to repeat the road part. *sigh* Well, at least, there is a REASON for me to come to KL again, right? Hehehe...I think that I might probably do the test in January or February. I do not want to repeat it as soon as possible because I will begin my work in the 2 more weeks. Therefore, I will have to see my working schedule and then, I can plan for my future. =)

I am glad that things between me and W are okay. and I am glad that he is not the type who will gonna entertain my nonsense. Hahaha.

And yeah,

My gurlfrens,

My families,

My adek-adeks,

My one and only bestfren...

All those are IRREPLACEBLe.

They will always be special in every way they are.

from the BOTTOM OF MY HEART:

I LOVE Them!

Through My Window - Bunkface

I dont want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, its just another day
Telling me why, Ill find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now theres me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see theres
More than you and more than me
Me and you
And we are not alone
Different view
We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Cant exist like this anymore

Now theres me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see theres
More than you and more than me

WHATever

Assalammualaikum

Indeed life is full of surprises! That is why I lurve surprises! *winks*

I dont really bother what job i get, who I will end up with...I really really really didnt mind at all. But it doesnt mean that I dont have a goal or vision in life.... It is just that I am not a choosy type. Therefore, as long as the job is related to my interest and passion, I will go for it!

And you know what....

This morning, I RECEIVED a phonecall for an intervieW!!!!!

Alhamdulillah~

It is one of my DREAM JOBS. I didnt really expect to get the feedback this fast. I send my resume thru email last friday. And....TADAAAA....a phonecall! weeee~

However, I am a bit scared for this interview. I really really really CAN feel butterflies flying around in my tummy. Huhuhu.

The reason of why I DISLIKES interview:

1. I have to appear FORMAL (hate iT! Im not a formal person, I hate formal events etc)

2. They like to ask SILLY questions - do you notice that I put it SILLY, becoz there is no such things as stupid question.

3. I feel like being INTERROGATEd.

4. I have to appear at my BEST.

5. People will SOMEHOW have some EXPECTATIONS on you - be it many or little.

Well, i know that some of the reasons are irrelevant, but never mind.

Whatever it is, I just hope that I manage to overcome all those reasons. Sometimes, you DO have to face things that you did not want. *sigh*

Pray for me.

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Recently, I have been keeping my status as a PART TIME BABYSITTER.

Yeah, you heard me right.

That is what I have been doing for these past few days.

My sister is here in Singapore with her two kiddos. And well, I learnt a LOT. *phew*

I remembered there is this one time, when I was about to enter the bathroom, then her 2nd son (Aziz) said:

"Khalah, baca doa..." (which means: Aunty, recite the supplication..)

And immediately I recited it aloud. The same goes when I came out from the bathroom. (And he actually WAITED for me to come out!!! hahaha)

Then, I found that is is FUN to see kids fight. Why is that so?

Well, I discovered that kids can EASILY get back together again. They WON'T held any grudges against each other. They will fight, then will not talk, and then, within 5-10 minutes after that, you will realize that they will play together again.

Wonderful, rite? *Subhanallah*

If kids could act like that, why can't we as Adults, be better than them? Something to ponder about.

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A little confession: I'm kinda of MISSING remembering someone right now.

Yeah. I confessed that it is HARD to let go of that someone. All the memories that I had With that someone are soooo hard to let go. tWo years + seven months. That someone really did left something in my life.

I'm trying my best here. Very Hard.

Ok, enough talking. Wanna sleep.

Assalammualaikum

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