And there he goes....aGain....

When you are in a relationship with someone, you will tend to expect more than you usually do...

That's the problem with me....

He is the kind of guy who will come and go in my life....

but when I'm into this relationship with him, I expected him to contact me all the time...

and of course, he will not contact me every day....coz he is himself.

And I am too selfish...always want things to be like what I want...never considered about how he feels...

Stop blaming him, Fadiah!

Holding On

People come and go in your life...there will always be the new and old ones...

And those who stay along the way in your life deserves so much and should be appreciated...

An interesting update in my life: I'm getting to feel something towards someone...

Like a song goes: "It started with a feeling...which then grew into a hope..."

yeah...that's totally right.

It's all begins with a simple phone call...then started with friendship, without knowing one another...then slowly feelings bloomed and there we are...in a relationship, but still...there are some vague things that I have to make it clear....

It is difficult when you know someone who is new to you...Meaning that: u did not know anyone who is related to him...you did not know his past (except for what he told you) and you did not have anyone to refer to...

So in that case, you will have to trust him and only him. And yes, even though there will always be risks, you will have to face it.

I trust him with all my heart, however there will always be to certain extend which I did not trust him fully....I will do as best as I can...and I am totally into this relationship. Unless if there is no future for us, then I will follow it if that is the best for me.

He is such a bless for me as I am for him.

"O Allah, grant us with happiness and make it easier for us in our future. Ameen..."

Whatever...

Do not hate people, Fadiah....

Yeah...i know that hatred is not good, but somehow I cant control it...

I've tried many ways...avoidance, neglect him...but still, i cant get him out of my mind...

Come on la, Fadiah...try your best and take those who love you...not those who you loved...

today, i had my midterm...yesterday, i could not study at all...i was reading the notes for today midterm and yet, my mind was wandering around on the thoughts of him and what we had done...

O Allah...help me please....

The on and off...

When people tell than they like you and then they ignore you...it is soooo annoying..

Last nite, I make it all clear with him...

I told him that if he wants to ignore me, then I am fine with that. I am done with him!

Decision

In life, there will be time for you to make decisions. Be it an important one or not, decisions will always be things that will affect your life.

The same goes with me. There are a looooooot decisions that I have to make such as to continue my studies, having relationship with someone etc.

Recently, I made a decision to meet with someone who i rarely know... We went out and he brought me around kL...i went back around 4 am...and yes, I admit that I am crazy. But trusting someone who rarely know, is it wrong?

I'm not sure of my true feelings towards him. The only thing that I know that I trust him as long as he is sincere with me...I did not force him to contact me or become close to me. If he want to, then it is my pleasure. But if he want to stop, then it is my pleasure to stop. I am not the one who will do something that someone else did not want to....