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Just A Dream

Ok, this will be little bit different. I tanak cakap apa. You just baca & agak aje apa yang lain k.

Hari ni I duduk rumah for the whole day & buat muvee marathon sorang2... Hehehe

Tengok cerita 'Istanbul Aku Datang' & 'Pitch Perfect'. Dua2 tu mcm chic flick. I am not exactly the girl who will like chic flick muvee, but as long as muvee tu tak memboringkan & tak slow, I will sure gonna like it (Though sometimes the ending is typical & predictable).

And another one more thing, cerita 'Istanbul Aku Datang' has a great storyline & script writing! Tak blh angkat dengan kata2 pujangga madah berhelah dia. Hehehe.

Oh, cerita ni pon terbitan RedFilms production. Before this cerita dorang, 'Gol & Gincu' was also my feveret. I watched that muvee for more than 5 times! Ok, kalau orang tahu, mmg orang kata merepek. Sampai dah blh hafal script dia. Tak bedek k... Hehehe

Alrite, enough about the muvee thingy.

I nak share dgn korang. Last week I mimpi tentang someone. Someone yang I dah tak contact lagi. I tak ingat mimpi pasal apa. Yang penting, dia ada dalam mimpi tu. And the weird thing is, I mimpi dia bukan sekali dua... Tapi more than that.

Hmmm... Tak tahu la kenapa. Nak kata contact, memang dah tak lagi. Nak kata teringat, kadang2 aje. Bukan selalu pon. So tak tahu la. My friend kata maybe dia teringat kat I agaknya. MAYBE. Allah knows better.

Apa-apa pun, I harap agar dia sentiasa sehat & bahagia Di samping orang-orang yang dia sayang. I suka tengok kalau orang bahagia, especially orang-orang yang rapat dengan I.

Ok la guys, I gotta go & continue my sewing. Yup, I tgh jahit abeh tetiba teringat nak share citer dgn korang. Hehehe..


Till then, take care ya!

Load of misses

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh....

Afiah, Aeash & Fitri

Control Macho

Sempat lagi!

Partner in Crime & Doing Good ;)

Crazypeople.com

The sweetest kind

Recently, I have been transferred to the Malay Curriculum Department & I will no longer be teaching. Therefore, my working place has also been changed. And I will not be with them anymore.

They are the most happening colleagues ever!

We fight, we argue, we laugh, we make silly jokes and sometimes we even cried because of silly things. All these memories make me miss them even more!

May Allah's blessings shine on them forever. Ameen ^^

Zaman skola-skola

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Minggu ni dipenuhi dengan perjumpaan yang tidak rasmi dengan kawan2 skola lama...

Zaman peringkat menengah @ alsagoff...

Zaman pakai uniform yang ada orang kata Macam warna rokok, which is orange & white... Huhu

Zaman ada crush2 yang dorg pon tak tahu aku suka kat dorg... Hahaha

Zaman pagi2 tido dalam bus...

Dan yang tidak dapat dilupakan ialah masa tu la first time belajar main basketball... Hehehe

Kenangan Demi kenangan... Suka sangat bila dapat jumpa kawan2 lama... Mostly dah kawen, datang dgn suami, datang dengan anak2... Suka sangat tengok... Heeeee~


Dan apa yang paling Fadiah tak sabar ialah nak citer dengan anak2 pasal zaman sekolah2 ni...

So pada mereka yang maseh lagi sekolah & belajar, hargai & ciptalah kenangan2 yang manis sebanyak yang mungkin...supaya bila Di masa hadapan nanti, kita boleh pandang ke belakang & tersenyum... ^^

93 Million Miles ^^

All to HIM

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

"And indeed Allah is All Knowing and Almighty."


Have you ever did something and hoping that it will turn out right, but it did not turn as what you hoped for?

Have you ever thought that you are ready for your marriage, but it is not the suitable time for you yet?

Have you ever prepared for something, arranged them neatly, then something unexpected happened?


Well, all these things happened to show that we CANNOT control everything.


We are just a humble and weak human being.


We do not have the strength to carry a lot of things which are beyond our capabilities. Let us take the easiest example; which is within ourselves, that is our HEART.


Can you control your own heartbeat?

Can you tell it to stop or start beating whenever you want to?


If the answer is YES, well...Please let me know.


As I (and most of us know) that it is impossible to do. It is beyond our control.


And there are sooooooo many things that are beyond our control too.


Therefore, why do we always feel proud of ourselves? Why do we feel that we did not need ALLAH in our life? Why do we always forget HIM?


Let us ponder together and reflect.


That we are NOTHING without HIM.


Therefore, keep on striving to increase our faith and gain as much knowledge as we can.


We can do it, with Allah by our side. ;)

Kawen-kawen

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

InsyaAllah ^^

Bila cakap pasal kawen, semua orang mesti nak kawen.... 

Cubalah tanya semua orang... Mustahil dorang jawab dorang tanak, unless sebab ada sejarah silam yang tidak boleh nak dilupakan, atau ada sakit kronik & dia rasa dia tak dapat nak hidup lama, atau pon dia tak bernafsu, atau pon dia takde rasa cinta atau istilah lain: HATI KERING dan 1001 sebab & alasan lagi yang ada....

Tapi, pada hakikatnya: dorang MESTI ada keinginan untuk berkahwin.

Korang dulu penah main 'kawen-kawen' tak masa kecik dulu?

Fadiah rasa mesti penah kaaaann? unless kalau korang memang jenis yang tak suka nak main or tak suka bergaul dengan orang....

Sebab Fadiah pernah! heeeeeeeeee~

Masa kecik-kecik dulu, main dengan sedara2, pastu sorg jadi pengantin lelaki & sorg lagi jadi pengantin perempuan...Pastu ada masak2 & rewang2.... Then nanti group lelaki datang & sambil ketuk2 baldi (untuk digantikan dengan kompang) & pengantin perempuan ditutup mukanya dengan kipas kecik...

Cuba la imagine, budak2 kecik yang kiut-miut, main kawen-kawen.... Mesti bertambah kiut kaaaan? ^^

SO, bila jumpa orang yang dah lanjut umur & kita dapat tawu yang dia maseh belom berkawen, tak usahlah nak tanya: 

"Nape awak tak kawen lagi...?" "Awak tanak kawen ke...?"

Dan soalan-soalan yang sewaktu dengannya....

Kerana, soal JODOH & PERTEMUAN itu di tangan ALLAH....

Ye, mungkin dia telah berusaha sedaya upaya, tapi ALLAH nak uji dia kerana ALLAH tahu dia mampu... Kita TAK TAHU...

Ye, mungkin dia maseh keliru & sedang mencari dirinya, dan ALLAH telah sediakan seorang lelaki yang baik untuknya cuma masanya belom tiba.... Kita TAK TAHU...

Jadi, tak usah bersangka-sangka dengan perkara yang kita TIDAK TAHU. Serahkan segala2nya pada ALLAH.

Dan mesti ingat selalu, bahawa ALLAH sentiasa inginkan yang terbaik buat hamba2Nya. Kheir insyaAllah...

Sparkle

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Sparkle Like A Diamond

It has been such a long time I did not updated this blog. It is not that I have been busy. Honestly, I am just to lazy to update. My writing skill are kinda falling down from the 20th to the 5th floor. Well, metaphorically speaking la kan.... hehehe

I will not speak about sacrifice. It is like a common thing to talk about. Everytime in Dzulhijjah, people will talk about sacrifice....in Syawal, people will talk about coming back to Fitrah... and bla bla bla....

But this time around, I wanna talk about being A DIAMOND. Like literally ^^

Every one of us is created to bring and to do something. It is either to the big community group, or just with in a  small group like your family, your friends etc.

If you have not discover your true self yet, just take your time and be patient. Cause just like a DIAMOND, you will have to be discovered, polished and formed to become a diamond.

Here are a few discoveries which I found out about diamonds:

1. It is discovered from the chunks of mantle, from the VOLCANO eruptions.

2. They are created from deep below the earth's crust in the LOWER MANTLE, about 120 KM below the surface.

3. In diamond, every carbon atom attaches itself to 4 other atoms, creating a continuous network of atoms, with no electrons alone. (how CooL is that?)

Therefore, never EVER  feel that yourself is useless. Just like the DIAMONDS, they are nothing, then being turned into something which some of us cannot afford it. heeeee~

You are worth of everything. You cannot be trade with anything. And do not make yourself look cheap and easy (you know what I mean...)

Everyone have their own self dignity. Treasure it & don't ever lose it.

Keep sparkle and shine always ^^

Almost a Wrap...

Most of the Big events for school had been done, and left just one more event, which is the YEC (Year End Concert).

And for this event, I am in charge for the emcee. I will do my best & hope that everyone will be entertained.

Let me share with you one secret: I am good in entertaining people. But not the super duper good. Just a normal one.
 
Well, actually I do not know about this talent. It happened two years back, when I was at the same place, doing emcee. During that time, it was my first experience.

The show went well, Alhamdulillah. And during the PTC (Parents Teachers Conference), most of the parents gave a good feedback. Then one of the parents even offered me to become a DJ! They said that I am very entertaining and I should go do something else, instead of teaching. HAhaha ^^

I found it a little bit funny cause I did not realize it. Betol la apa orang cakap: belom cuba, belom tahu. Bila dah cuba, baru tahu. Heeeeeeeeeee~

Yes, I admit that I really like entertainment. I listens to musics, watch latest movies, and play games. However there is also a limit to it. Cause as a Muslim, I know my priorities. I like to entertain people and make them smile. And during the first experience as an emcee, all I think about is making people smile and laugh. Maybe I can be a clown too! hahaha

Ok, so these are some updates that I would like to share it with you.

I am looking forward for the upcoming small event: go to the LEGOLAND @ Johore Bahru. Weeeeeeee~

Counting days....InsyaAllah...

Lebih Manis Dari Kurma

Kenangan.

Itulah yang lebih manis dari kurma.

Tak kisah la kalau sekiranya ada yang terasa pahit atau tawar, tapi akhirnya akan tetap menjadi manis apabila di kenang semula.

Ya, Fadiah tengah dalam proses menyingkap kembali kenangan-kenangan lama.

Kadang-kadang tersenyum sendiri. Especially kalau kenangan itu paling hebat dalam sejarah hidup Fadiah.

Kalau nak mention satu per satu, sampai esok pon tak abes. Jadi cukuplah Fadiah katakan: SEMUA orang yang pernah hadir dalam hidup ni, telah meninggalkan kenangan. Walaupun ada yang pahit, tapi bila Fadiah tengok balik sekarang, Fadiah tersenyum & kadang-kadang sampai tertawa kecil, mengenangkan betapa chomel-nya orang-orang ni. Heeeee~

Banyak juga yang telah Fadiah pelajari dari kenangan. Betol la orang kata, tak semua perkara yang kita boleh pelajari dari sekolah. Tapi kita boleh pelajari semuanya di sepanjang perjalanan hidup ini.

Memang dulu, Fadiah tak nak keluar dari 'comfort zone' ni. Fadiah bahagia di samping orang-orang yang Fadiah sayang. Ada W untuk layan, ada kawan2 boleh berkongsi perasaan, ada ayah & ibu untuk beri nasihat....

Tapi sekarang ni, setelah beberapa kejadian, Fadiah mula nak keluar dari tempat tu.

Perlahan-lahan, Fadiah tak contact sangat dengan kawan-kawan sebab most of them dah kawen. Fadiah memang jenis yang tak suka nak rapat dengan orang yang dah ada keluarga sendiri. Tapi still contact la.

Fadiah dah putuskan dengan W. Bukan tanak kawan dengan dia lagi....Kalau boleh, maseh nak lagi. Yelah, kawan kita kan...pernah kongsi ketawa, kongsi marah, kongsi tangisan etc. Tapi disebabkan oleh beberapa sebab yang tak dapat nak dielakkan, Fadiah RASA ini cara yang terbaik. (note: Fadiah besarkan word 'rasa' tu coz ia memang datang dari perasaan. Kalau secara rasional, memang tak payah nak putuskan pon). Fadiah tetap doakan untuk dia dari jauh kerana dia tetap kawan Fadiah yang pernah Fadiah kenal.

Dan Alhamdulillah, setelah keluar dari zon keselesaan ni, sedikit sebanyak terasa diri ni bertambah kuat. Semoga kekuatan yang Allah pinjamkan ini akan berterusan sampai bila-bila. InsyaAllah.

Ok, sedikit update tentang kerja Fadiah,

Fadiah akan menduduki peperiksaan IELTS tak lama lagi. Doakan ye.


P/S: Kalau awak tertanya, nape Fadiah kena ambil IELTS, sebab Fadiah punya degree dari Malaysia. & Singapore ni tak recognize degree yang dari Msia + Fadiah takde English untuk OLevel.

Dan sememangnya, English is definitely not my bestfriend. But I will try, somehow.
OK bye!

Give Way

Would you make way for something better to happen?

Ok, abok macam dah mula berkumpul kat belog ni...*sambil kebas abok* 

Perasan tak ada soalan bawah gambar tu?

Soooo...would you?

As for me, yes, I would. 

Baru-baru ni something unexpected happened. Oh well, that's life. It is full of surprises. That's what make it wonderful, rite?

So, I decided to forgive and forget. It has been like, how many years eh...hmmm... tak terkira la...

Fadiah yang stuck. Stuck in her own world. Stuck dalam rasa yang orang tu ada perasaan yang sama, padahal takde tanda pape poon... Stuck dalam masa zaman-zaman kegemilangan di Taman Ilmu dan Budi dulu...

So, itu la salah sendiri. 

Orang kata, kalau bertepuk sebelah tangan, memang tak akan berbunyi, Kalau bunyi pon, bunyi dia sumbang. 

Tapi apa-apa pun yang terjadi, itu lah semalam, kelmarin & masa silam. Quoted from a blogger: Past is whatever *insert gaya gedik* , Present is let's do something better, Future is ,"ya Allah, I give it all to you,please give me something better?"

Ye, kita bagi laluan untuk benda2 yang kurang penting & kurang jelas untuk jalan meninggalkan kita. Only the real one stays coz we live in reality, not fantasy. ^^

Jika sekiranya satu hari, orang tu tergerak hati nak tanya, Fadiah maafkan dia atau tak...Ye, Fadiah maafkan dia & sentiasa doakan yang terbaik untuk dia. Kerana diri ni pon maseh penuh dengan dosa. Maseh banyak yang perlu dibaiki.

Setiap hari itu menyediakan langkah baru, semangat baru & juga harapan baru. 

Teruskan usaha & tawakkal.

Kalau kita jujur, Allah akan permudahkan. Kheir InsyaAllah ^^

Lebih

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Adakah ini sebuah lukisan atau sekeping gambar yang telah edit? Cubalah teka ^ ^

Ok, first of all, gambar yang berada di atas tu, tiada kaitan dengan cerita yang akan Fadiah kongsi dengan awak.

Sebelum mulakan cerita, nak la kepo-kepo sikit... hehehe

Macam mana dengan Ramadhan awak setakat ini? Semuanya ok? So far so good? Or so far tempat duduk? (get it? This is a JOKE btw!)

Bagi Fadiah, semuanya Alhamdulillah. Yang sedang-sedang aja. Tiada apa-apa yang extra special.

ADa seorang kawan ni, suka tanya Fadiah soalan ni: "Apa khabar iman ko?"

Bila dapat soalan mcm itu, hallamaaaaakk...dengan pantas secepat kilat, Fadiah tukar topic. Hehehehe
Bukan tanak jawab, tapi...bila berbicara tentang iman ni, biarlah antara yang empunya diri & Pencipta saja yang tahu. Fadiah tak berani nak cakap.

Jap eh...(Tengok topik entri...)

Ok, kita nak cerita tentang 'Lebih'.

Apa yang lebih? Duit lebih? Rupa lebih? IQ terlebih?

Sebenarnya, kesemua di atas tadi tu, BETOL!

Bila bercakap tentang kelebihan, memang setiap orang ada kelebihan masing-masing. Hatta, orang yang jahat pon ada kelebihan, iaitu terLEBIH jahat. Hehehehe~

So automatically kita akan terasa yang diri kita ni hebat seperti Superman...tapi kat dunia ni, mana lah ada superman...yang ada cuma dalam komik & filem aje....Kalau ada betol-betol pon, bukan superman, tapi SUPARMAN (nama lelaki, selalunya dari Indonesia, orang-orang Jawa donk...)


Jadi, untuk mengelakkan daripada merasa Hebat pada diri sendiri (benda ni sering terjadi pada diri Fadiah),
eloklah kita melihat sekeliling kita.

Kalau kita rasa diri kita ni baik, pause kejap & cuba pergi masjid & solat berjemaah... Kat situ, mesti ada orang yang lebih baik & tawaddhu' dari kita....

Kalau kita rasa diri kita ni pandai, cuba kita join mana-mana class (tak kisah lah, class agama ke, class memasak ke...), Kat situ, mesti kita jumpa orang yang lebih pandai dari kita....

Kalau kita rasa diri kita ni kaya, cuba kita pergi ke Persatuan ahli usahawan negara... Kat situ, mesti ada yang lebih kaya-raya dari kita...

Kalau kita rasa diri kita ni miskin, cuba kita pergi ke Persatuan-persatuan amal kebajikan setempat.... Kat situ, mesti ada senarai orang-orang yang lebih miskin di kawasan kita...

Kalau kita rasa diri kita ni lawa atau encem, cuba kita pergi ke Syarikat pengurusan model...Kat situ, mesti ramai jejaka lebih encem & gadis yang lebih lawa dari kita....


Kesimpulannya, itulah DUNIA.

Bila di mana awak merasakan diri awak sudah sampai ke suatu tempat (which is dah cukup pandai, dah cukup kaya, dah cukup soleh etc), sebenarnya awak BELUM. Awak tak pernah akan  PUAS sekiranya awak mengejar dunia. Kerana, di dalam dunia ini, akan SENTIASA ada orang yang lebih dari kita.

Oleh itu, kita kenalah selalu menasihatkan DIRI SENDIRI supaya jangan sekali-kali bersifat sombong & sentiasa bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.

Memang kena berusaha untuk jadi yang terbaik untuk DIRI SENDIRI, tapi bukan untuk dunia atau untuk impress kan orang.

Bak kata the late Steve Jobs "Always stay foolish. Always be hungry." *dalam tu maksud!*

Ok la, sebelum Fadiah terLEBIH cakap, eloklah Fadiah berenti setakat ini dulu.

Kita jumpa lagi di lain masa ye. InsyaAllah. ^ ^

Untuk awak

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Jangan tertipu dengan gambar ini. Kulit saya takde lah licin sangat mcm ni. HEHE

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Soal Hati

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

Ok, pada hari ini, Fadiah ingin cuba menulis di dalam Bahasa Melayu yang baik, bukan Bahasa Melayu rojak yang selalu Fadiah gunakan. Kita cuba k...Bismillah...

Hari ini, Fadiah ingin membicarakan soal hati...

Teringat kata-kata dari sebuah novel:

"Jika kita menulis dari hati, orang akan terasa bila membaca hasil penulisan kita..."

Ye, itu dari sebuah novel fiksyen. Ia nya rekaan semata-mata. Tetapi, bila kita berbicara tentang hati, memang begitu yang selalu kita akan rasa.

Dari hati, turun ke hati.

Sebab itu, ada sebuah hadith Rasulullah S.A.W. yang menyebutkan tentang pentingnya seketul daging bernama 'HATI' itu. 

Ia sangat penting seperti pentingnya sebuah microchip untuk sebuah komputer. Pentingnya juga seperti fungsi sebuah engin untuk sebuah kereta. Jika ia rosak atau tidak berfungsi dengan baik, maka kerosakan juga akan bermula.

Oleh itu, kita harus menjaga hati ini seumpama menjaga sebuah permata yang sangat berharga. Jagalah ia juga sebagaimana awak menjaga barang-barang berharga hasil pemberian dari orang yang awak sayangi.

Jagalah ia juga seperti awak menjaga kesihatan, harta dan juga penampilan awak. 

Kerana hakikatnya, orang akan menilai hati kita. Bukan rupa dan harta kita. 

Jika pada mulanya, orang sudah tentu akan melihat pada muka, bentuk badan serta status seseorang, tetapi untuk jangka masa yang panjang, mereka akan mula menilai awak dari cara layanan awak, serta tingkah laku awak terhadap mereka. Dan akhlak itu, adalah hasil daripada keadaan hati awak. Dan keadaan hati awak itu, bergantung pada keadaan iman serta pengaruh kepercayaana awak. 

Bagi memudahkan untuk awak faham, Fadiah akan cuba untuk menyimpulkan secara mudah:

IMAN / KEPERCAYAAN ---> HATI ---> AKHLAK / TINGKAH LAKU

Jadi, mari lah kita menjaga hati kita. Usah fikirkan sangat tentang perkara-perkara yang diluar kawalan awak. Fokuskan pada perkara yang boleh awak usahakan, iaitu menjadi seorang hamba yang taat, anak yang soleh / solehah, suami / isteri yang baik, dan pekerja yang cemerlang. 

Niatkan kerana Allah & usahakan yang terbaik. Jika ada orang yang meragui tentang keikhlasan awak, abaikan mereka. Kerana, awak tahu apa yang awak lakukan. 

Jika ia datang dari hati yang bersih, orang akan merasainya juga. InsyaAllah.

Ramadhan kareem....~ ^^ 

New

Every day is a new day.

Every day fill with new hopes.

Therefore, we should stop clinging into the past.

Yes, we may look back. But do not stay there.

Just look back and ponder. Then start a new and fresh life.

After all, that is what life is about. Living it in the PRESENT and for the HEREAFTER.

Balance

If there is a road, and you keep walking on it, it gets boring.

If there is a bit of hump, it is tiring to walk, but you will feel accomplished.

If it increases a bit, you feel like you won yourself.

And it increases a little bit more , you feel like you are at the top of the world.

The only difference was the hump.

If the hump was turn the other way round, which is a slope, if it goes down, you will feel comfortable.

If it goes a little bit down, then you will start to fall.

Therefore, life needs balance. ^^


Credits: Choi Min Soo

  

Sick

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh...

Last week was filled with me, lying on my bed most of the days.

Yes, I have been sick. Having fever for the whole week is not a joke. 

But it is actually just a little test from the Creator.

After all these time, He blessed me with health, which I always took it for granted...then now is the time for me to appreciate and make full use of it. 

Baru ingat nak mengadu saket, tapi teringat yang dulu ada seorang Nabi menderita saket selama beberapa TAHUN, tapi dia maseh bersyukur.

Fadiah ni, yang baru seminggu aje saket, dah lupa nak bersyukur. Astaghfirullah~

Alhmdulillah 'ala kulli hal ^^

May all of you be blessed with good health and strong faith. Ameen.

Ain't about the money?

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh...

Life is indeed full of suprises, rite?

Well, well, well....

Recently, something happened to me. Something which I have not expected. 

Before I share the story, let me make it clear that this is just a sharing. 

Ok, one of the best parts in the career life is when it is the SALARY period. Kaching kachiiiing~ ~ ~

It is understandable that part of our intentions to work is to earn for a living. Everyone knows that. It is a common sense. 

However, when people started to question you like this:

"Eh, I thought you work for the sake of Allah. So why worry about your salary?"

I will start to take a very deep breathe and pause for a moment.  

Before I start to give my answer, I will ask them back: 

"Are you saying that when we mentioned about the salary, it shows that we do not work for Allah's sake?"

They will start to rephrase their sentences and continue with their own reasoning.

So people, we are living in the world, where money is needed. It might not be a primary need, but it is part of our need. Therefore, stop asking that kind of questions. It does not mean that when people asking THEIR RIGHT about their salary, they do not work for Allah's sake. 

Ok, back to my story. (yang kat atas tu intro aje. Hehehehe)

Before I went back into this current organization, I expected that they would make some changes. Unfortunately, my expectation is wrong. 

My salary for this month has been POSTPONED for 7 this, due to the mistake from one of my colleagues.

Yeah, at first I was furious, mad and all those unappropriate stuff. But several days later, I started to calm down and told myself that I will gonna give them a letter by the end of the year. 

It is as simple as that.

I do not want to make a big issue for those who do not know their responsibility. I have been tolerating with their nonsense policy (Which is: they salary will be suspended if one of the staffs' punch card has problem, such as did not state the total lateness, did not attach the MC etc). And another thing, about the CPF thingy. Tak payah nak cakap la. Buat penat mulut aje.

I feel so dissapointed that they never change. Oh well, a leopard can never change it spots, i guess.

Lesson learnt: If you cannot expect a person to change, then do not expect an ORGANIZATION to change.

Last but not least, a friend just texted me, asking for a counselling session. Maybe I should try on this...hmmmm~ time for an istikharah! 

Wish me luck!

And the same goes to you, my loyal readers ^^

Fight On!

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Just when you think that everything is going fine, according to your way, then suddenly it is NOT!

What will you do?

Will you stop?

Or will you keep on going?





As for me, sometimes I will pause for a moment, take a deep breath, ponder, reflect....and continue my journey as usual.

Just like this blog.

Sometimes there are soooo many posts. Like a daily one.

But then, there will come a time, where all the spiders will come out and fill in their webs... (you know what i mean?)

As long as I am breathing, this journey of life will continue. Come what may....I will continue to fight. InsyaAllah.

May Allah will always be with us.

Untuk seseorang yang bergelar kawan

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

"People come and go. Oh well, that's life." ^^

Baru-baru ini, ada seorg kawan Fadiah yang kata dia tanak berhubung dengan Fadiah lagi. 

Bedek la kalau kata Fadiah tak sedih. Ye, saya sedih. Tapi tak dapat nak paksa orang untuk terus berkawan dengan kita kan. 

Persahabatan, percintaan, perkahwinan dan apa-apa hubungan sekalipun, merupakan perkara-perkara yang tidak boleh dipaksa. kerana ianya berkaitan dengan hati.

Sepanjang hidup di dunia ini, Fadiah berkawan dengan ramai orang. & dari situ, Fadiah dapat menilai yang mana kawan yang sejati & sebaliknya. 

Walau apa pun keadaan sekali pun, teruskan berbaik sangka. Fadiah tetap ingat dia sebagai seorang kawan yang pernah berkongsi & mengajar sesuatu. 

Dia ada buat satu permintaan terakhir, iaitu memadam segala yg berkaitan dengan diri dia.

Di sini Fadiah nak minta maaf, kerana terus terang Fadiah katakan, Fadiah tak dapat buang apa2 kerana semua ni adalah sebahagian dari memori Fadiah.

Bila umur dah meningkat ni, kita semakin lebih menghargai daripada menghindari. Ye, itu yang Fadiah rasa. Walau sakit mcm mana sekalipun, Fadiah kena bertahan. Tak nak mengelak. kerana itu lah lumrah kehidupan. 

Kesakitan itu mengajar kita untuk menjadi kuat.

Dulu masa muda remaja, Fadiah memang suka mengelak. Bila ada masalah sikit aje, mula la duduk sembunyi sorang2. So, Fadiah faham sedikit sebanyak apa yang kawan Fadiah tu rasa. 

Ada jugak orang kata yang Fadiah ni pentingkan diri sendiri, insensitive & macam-macam lagi. Tapi mcm W dan Bluefairy cakap, biarlah apa orang nak kata. Mereka tak faham keadaan kita. Mereka hanya menilai dari luaran. Diorang pon penah lalui apa yang Fadiah lalui. Orang kata diorang selfish. So, biarkan laaaa~

Untuk kawan Fadiah yang dah tanak kawan lagi tu: Terima kaseh kerana kehadiran awak mengajar sesuatu. Memori itu memang tak dapat dilupakan kerana ia sebahagian dari kehidupan saya. Maaf kerana kehadiran diri ini menyusahkan awak. Maaf juga sekiranya salah menilai atau menafsir awak. Maaf juga kerana tidak dapat menjadi seorang kawan yang baik.  Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah. Pasti. Semoga kebahagiaan sentiasa menjadi milik awak. Kheir InsyaAllah ^^

The Busy Bee

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh...

How have you been?

As for me, it was a hectic months. Been busy completing the LP, filling in the students record, preparing props & decor, arranging the plans and so on....

Last two weeks was at the peak. I went back from work after maghrib, almost everyday!!!! Luckily, the school is near to my house. Just a 15 mins walking distance.

And Alhmdulillah, all of it has been completed! Though I fall sick for the last two days... Huhu

But anyway, I am satisfied with my performance (though there are some shortcomings) as I get to see the
improved performance of my students.

It is something which money can't buy and cannot be describe in words. It is such a wonderful feeling. Mmmmm~

Ok, so that's about my work.

Now, back to my life.

I have been attending weddings for these past few weeks. 3 weddings altogether. One is my friend from uni, another 2 are my bestfriends. ^^

I am glad to see both of my bestfriends got married. Both of them have been there for me, since my Maahad year, until now. I have known their family members, and even some of their relatives! That is how close we are. Heeeee~

Then we got separated (physically) as we step into our career life. Time and distance has always been a challenge for us. However, we still hold on to each other and never let go. We would arrange for a meet up, we even managed to go for a trip together! Alhmdulillah, thank you Allah, for this wonderful friendship. ^^

By the way, I have just learnt something for these few days, which are:

- do not call people 'names' or give them specific characteristic, as you did not know the true story.

- it is better to be a busy Bee, rather than a busyBody. However, it is better to be not busy at all. Muahahaha...

الخطايا

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته...

كيف حالكم...؟ سأتكلم في هذه المرة باللغة العربية كاملا، إن شاء الله ^^

قبل ابدأ الكلام، أريد أن يشارك معكم عن الكلام جميل من [ ابن القيم ] عليه رحمة الله ..

وكل ابن آدم خطاء وخير الخطائين التوابون ..

فلابد من الخطأ ولابد من التقصير وكلنا ذوو خطأ .. لكن إياك أن تبقى على الخطأ ..

فلا بد علينا ان نستغفر من كل ذنب ونرجع الى الله بقلب سليم...

وأسأل الله ان يعطي القوة في صدورنا ويستقم إيماننا... آمين ^^

A Tribute

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh...

Waddup guys...!!! Hehehe. Tak penah-penah cakap waddup, tetiba hari ni nak cakap...

Ok, sebelum membebel panjang2, just wanna say that this entry will gonna be a 'rojak' one. I'm gonna mix some English & Malay. Sorry la cikgu-cikgu & teachers out there. I'm here to destroy the language system *evil laugh* k k gurau ^^

Alrite. As you guys can see at the title there, I put 'A Tribute'. Therefore I dedicated this entry for someone who is close to me, sometimes will be there for me (noted there: sometimes. Hahaha), share secrets & problems & all that friends usually do.

And he is none other than W. (mcm dah lama gitu tak sebut Nama dia kat blog ni).

Ok, mesti some of you wondering nape fadiah ni tetiba aje nak buat tribute kan? Selama ni tak appreciate ke?

Ah haaaaa... So here goes...

Actually fadiah tak ingat sgt dah berapa lama kte kenal. It has been like more than 5 years. I lost count when I met him. Teruk kaaaan?

Oh well, anyway that is just a number. The important part is the quality of the friendship & how well we connect.

Fadiah mengaku sejujurnya yang fadiah ni mmg tak pandai berkawan sgt. Kalau kawan gitu2, mmg ramai.,tp yang rapat, blh kira dgn jari. & W is one of them.

Masa mula2 kenal dia, mmg susah nak click. Kte selalu bebual merepek, suka buat lawak bods, abeh tu kita kalau cakap pasal org, then nanti mesti end up ketawakan org tu. terok betol perangai time tu. isy isy isy...

Kalau gaduh pulak, tak yah nak cakap la berapa byk kali. Mmg banyak sgt smpi tak terkira. Gaduh-baik-gaduh-baik... Mmg tu la keje kita. Hahaha...

But then as years goes by, we grew up, grew closer & mature together.

We share advices, experiences & knowledge together.

He has helped me a lot, though not all the time. But that's ok. Coz I understand where his priorities should be. ^^

He inspires me (dia tak tahu part ni. Shhhhh~) and sometimes knock some senses out of my head.

So, I would like to take this opportunity to THANK him for his patience, tolerance & kindness.

May Allah reward him with happiness in this life & the Hereafter.

Lastly, may this friendship last forever till jannah. InsyaAllah.



P/s: kalau W baca entry ni, mesti dia terharu smpi tertido kaaan? K k gurau. Hahaha...

Here. Now.

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh

This entry will gonna be a long one.

It has been a quite busy week for me. Well, at EVERY end of the month is a super duper busy week. Coz we will have to complete our given props for the circle time activities, as well as the Thematic Board (which we have to change it MONTHLY). 

So, that is just SOME of the tasks. (minus the marking, which all teachers have to do. Boo!)

But, regardless of all that jobs, I am still grateful for the life that I have right now. For the faith that I have. Knowing that my Creator is always there for me, is PRICELESS. For those wonderful people that I met throughout my life. For those sweet and bittersweet memories that I had. Alhmdulillah.

Recently, I received a very good news from Aussie. It is about 'the project' that was planned by my Aunt. 

I was told that the guy still not ready yet. Alhmdulillah sangat2!!! It is like a dream come true. Heeeeeeeeee~

Lesson learnt: Keep on hoping and praying. Allah will guide us along the way. 

Ok, next story is about the situation at my workplace. 

First: We have a new VP. She was one of the teachers too.  Since she has been appointed, we have detect some of the changes in her behavior. She was not as cheerful as before. She create a barrier as if she did not know us. She spent most of the time in her office. 

Apart from that, we do make her angry sometimes. Such as: did not finish the given task on time, did not perform the task properly and many more.

Second: There is a new teacher in my school. I have known her since my Uni years. We are just friend, but not that close. Since she has been working there, I heard a lot of complaints about her. 

ok pause. 

It is wrong to talk about others behind their back. But I cant help it. I need to change this.

ok continue. 

So people complained. Since then, I do not talk to her. But there are some few casual talks. It is just I do not want to be close to her anymore. I just need to make a barrier, cause I am the bad one here. 

Lesson learnt:

First; People CHANGE. One day, you might know them kind and friendly. But do not expect them to stay the same for the rest of their life. Unless they are the consistent ones.

Second; Do not talk behind others' back. It is a sin, Fadiah. If you don't like them, try to talk nicely to them but still treat them well. You dont have to be harsh. Yeah, I can be mean and harsh sometimes. I need to change that too.

So, that's it for now. I need to revamp my room coz I got free time now. Wuhuuuuuu~

Stay happy and smile always! ^^

JoDoh

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Ok. Entry kali ni pasal jodoh. Orang selalu suka cakap pasal jodoh. Tapi kita tahu tak dengan siapa jodoh kita.

Ada seorang kawan Fadiah penah cakap: 

"Fadiah, kalau jodoh tu senang macam beli Happy Meal kat McDonald, tak yah susah2 la aku nak usaha pasal jodoh." 

Yeah. Kita berusaha. Allah yang tentukan. 

Dan selepas usaha itu, jika tidak seperti yang kita harapkan, kita perlu redha. Kerana kita telah berusaha.

Apa pun yang berlaku, sekarang ni Fadiah ada banyak benda yang perlu difikirkan. Dan jodoh hanya sebahagian kecil darinya. 

Semoga sama2 kita mendapat jodoh yang baik & boleh menuju ke Syurga bersamanya. InsyAllah ^^

Akal

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullah Wabarakatuh

Orang selalu kata "Dah ada akal, mesti dah boleh pikir punye..."

Tapi realitinya, berapa ramai yang boleh fikir betol-betol?

Berapa ramai yang betol-betol memanfaatkan akal fikiran yang telah Allah berikan?

Catatan ringkas buat renungan bersama.

Selamat beramal ^^

Berkata baik

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Ye, memang dah agak lama saya tidak mengemaskini belog ini.

Dan ye, sekali lagi, kerana saya akan menggunakan Bahasa Melayu bagi penulisan belog saya kali ini.

Menjadi seorang guru tadika telah mengajar saya banyak perkara. Mengajar saya untuk menjadi sabar. Mengajar saya untuk menghormat pandangan orang lain. Dan juga, mengajar saya untuk banyak berdiam.

Dalam kehidupan ini, tanpa kita sedari, kita terlalu banyak cakap.Sebelum saya memulakan perbicaraan tanpa suara ini, saya ingin berkongsi tentang satu hadith yang 'fofular' ^^ :

Dari Abu Hurairah R.A. telah berkata Rasulullah S.A.W.:

"Barangsiapa yang beriman dengan Allah dan hari Qiamat hendaklah dia berkata baik atau berdiam diri, dan barangsiapa yang beriman dengan Allah dan hari Qiamat hendaklah dia berbuat baik terhadap jirannya, dan barangsiapa yang beriman dengan Allah dan hari Qiamat, hendaklah dia memuliakan tetamunya."

Selama hampir 29 tahun saya hidup di muka bumi ini, saya boleh ingat hanya berapa kali saja yang saya bercakap tentang perkara2 yang baik. Dan yang selebihnya, ianya adalah perkara2 yang tidak berfaedah atau pun yang kosong. Macam orang2 Indoesia kata 'Omong kosong'. Hehehe...

Ye, saya mengaku bahawa saya memang seorang yang suka berjenaka.

Ye, saya mengaku bahawa saya memang seorang yang suka bercakap, sehingga kadangkala membuat orang rasa menyampah pada saya. Saya juga bercakap tentang orang lain. Saya ada juga mengutuk dan juga bercakap berlebihan. 

Tetapi saya tidak pernah mengada-adakan cerita. Segala apa yang terjadi, memang betol-betol terjadi. 

Dan segala perbuatan yang kurang elok pernah saya buat, memang amat di kesali. Saya tidak akan menulis dengan lebih lanjut tentang kekesalan saya. Cukuplah saya sekadar menyatakan yang saya menyesal. kerana bagi saya, kekesalan yang bersungguh hanya diluahkan di hadapan ALLAH, dan bukan pada manusia, mahupun di internet.

Di akhir penulisan kali ini, saya amat berharap pada kawan-kawan yang amat saya kasihi,

jika ada cerita tentang orang yang kamu mahu kongsikan dengan saya, lupakan saja. 

jika ada kata-kata hikmah atau nasihat yang mahu diberikan pada saya, silakan.

jika kamu tidak tahu hendak berkata apa-apa, cukuplah sekadar melemparkan senyum, memberi salam dan bertanya khabar.

kerana saya juga akan membuat begitu. Saya akan cuba.

jikalau saya senyap, bukan bererti saya marah atau sudah lupakan kamu...tetapi saya mencari sesuatu yg baik untuk dikatakan kepada kamu. 

Sekian. Terima kaseh ^^

Addiction

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

There is a confession that I have to make. 

I have this addiction. Which I could not cure. (Or maybe I dont have to cure it. Hehehe)

I am addicted to D.I.Y. 

Yes, you heard it right. 

Most of the DIY things that I am addicted to are based on the simple and easy to make. And also it will not required a lot of things. Plus, it is cheap. I am interested ONLY to foods, decors and gifts. Other than that, such as furniture or clothes, are too difficult for me. It required talent, and I am in the process of learning it. 

I spent most of my time, surfing all those DIY websites. These are some of my favorites: 

1. Be different, act normal

2. Dana made it

3. Brown paper packages

However, when it came to the part of doing it, sadly I still do not have much time to do it. Maybe one day, InsyaAllah, if I get to become a homemaker, I will FULLY invested in the DIY thingy.  ^^

And as always, I will always remember this quote whenever I want to buy something:

"Why would you buy things when you can made them?" 

Happy surfing!

For The Love

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

I thought that I could update my blog yesterday, but unfortunately I was stuck with the parents' checklists. Blergh!

In this post, I'm gonna talk about Love, love and looooove... (biar sampai korang muak dengan cinta...muahahaha)

So, before I proceed with my rumbles and jumbles of words, let me state two situations for you.

FIRST: There is this one man who really really adore an artist. He did not tell the artist. All he did was praising him, write beautiful poems for him, did not buy his original albums, but instead download it illegally and did not attend his concerts.

SECOND: Another man who loves the artist. He approach the artist, telling him about his admiration, dress like the artist, talk like the artist, walk like the artist, act like the artist & people almost thought that he IS the artist! 

QUESTION:

From these two different, yet similar situation, which one portrays the TRUE admiration or love?

Some may answer the first one. Some may choose the second one. Whatever the choice that you make, let me tell you this:

TRUE love ACT, not speak. 

TRUE love DO, not talk.

You may said many many many, thousands, billions and gazillions of words to express your love.... but if your action do not goes along with your sayings, well, it is EPIC fail.

So pause, think & ACT. 

This is a reminder for myself too. Thank you for dropping by ^^.

May Allah bless you always. 

Children of heaven

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

My NePHEWs & niece ^^

Children.... Just by mentioning that word, the faces of sweet, innocent and cheeky of boys & girls will start to appear...


Something happened at school today. As usual, the afternoon session started at 12pm. I greeted the children with smile on my face & cheerful voice. I was instructed to check the children's hands & feet ( as a prevention of HFMD ).

As I was checking the children & some of them were still queuing for their turn, a girl, aged 3 years old, who is always with me, came to me & stood besides me. I asked her to queue up, but she insisted. 5 minutes after that, I realized that she looked different. I keep talking to her (though she just looked at me, without any answer). Then suddenly.... *blueeeek* she VOMITTED!!!! It came out pouring & some of it stained MY clothes!

I was so shocked & quickly brought her to the toilet. While cleaning my clothes, I talked to her again. When I was about to vent my anger on her, suddenly something strikes me.

No matter how many mistakes a child did, they are innocent than YOU are.

Terus tak jadi nak marah. Instead, I looked at her, hugged and gave her a kiss. Kesian dia kaaaan... coz she want to express her feelings & try to let it out. She just do not know how to do it.

Again. Children...They are just like angels on this earth. Subhanallah~

PBS

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Do not destroy it

Fadiah is in the mood to update her blog! wohooooo~

Ok, first of all, Praise be to Allah for all the non-stop blessings, whether it is good or bad, in the end, it is for your OWN good. True story.

I am soooo sad after the break up. Therefore this entry will gonna be a sad entry. NAAAAAH~ it is not gonna be the 'ala-la-la sayang intan payung' kinda sad. But it is gonna be a good one. Trust me. 

So here goes....

I am in the PBS period right now (FYI, it stands for Post Break-up Syndrome). So there might be times when suddenly I will feel sadness all around me. It sounds crazy & sometimes I do feel crazy. But then, I will realize that I learn to cope with myself even better after all the incidents.

O ALLAH, please grant me strength. I am strong. I am strong. I am strong. (This is my regular chant for these past few days.)  

But deep deep down inside, I feel sooooooooooooooooooooooo sad. Thinking of the ungrateful me, who is always forget about the blessings which surround herself. 

Allah, My families, my friends, the Quran, the state of being healthy & alive ----> all those blessings. Are irreplaceble. 

The possibility which kept me thinking about it is because he left without meeting me & explain everything FACE TO FACE. If in a harsh language, people would say "Macam jantan pengecut... Dah bagi harapan, pastu buat mcm gini. Pfffftttt..." After all the future plans, the promises, bla bla bla...and yes, TALK IS CHEAP. Until you DO it, then it will cost more than what money can buy.

Whatever it is, everything happened for a reason. It would be a lie if I say that I do not assume. I DO assumed, but in the end, I know that only Allah knows the REAL reason. 

He did says that he didnt have the feeling for me. He cant be in loved or to be loved. and We are not meant to be together. Oh yeah, bila baca dengan akal yang rasional, fadiah rasa nak ketawa pun ada. If he says about this lovey-dovey thing, I also wanna say that I also do not love him at first. I just want to get to know him. Though, Fadiah contact dia hari-hari, it doesnt mean that I am in love with him. The feelings DEVELOP along the way. And yes it does. But when it just STARTED to develop, he make this decision. Oh well, what else can I say? He made up his mind already...

And if someone would ask me, do I forgive him? Of course I do. Who am I not to forgive him? I also make mistakes and full of weaknesses...

Sabar. Pasrah. Redha. Dan yang sewaktu dengannya. 

"Sabar terkadang hanya perlu seminit dua, terkadang berbulan, dan terkadang hingga kamu mati, perlu terus bersabar..." 

Eternally

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh...

Everything had ended yesterday. I felt very very sad in the beginning. But now, I feel relief and very thankful. Alhmdulillah.

It was quite a good lesson for me. And new experience too.

First time jumpa parents org. First time pegi dating or whatever. & whatever it is, just look at the brighter side of it.

Seriously, fadiah Malas nak pikir the real reason for his decision. Tapi tak dapat dinafikan, ada terpikir jugak. Mcm dia ada perempuan lain, or sbb fadiah ni terlalu mengongkong. Then when I shared it with my sis, she said that mayb his parents was the one who are not sure about me.

And whatever it is, it had happened. Fadiah maseh tetap tak faham & tanak tahu. Biarlah ia menjadi rahsia Allah.

Furthermore, I did my istikharah. And I am confident that it is the answer for the istikharah.

Alhmdulillah for all the blessings. Praise be to Allah, cause only Him, where true happiness lies. And I am on my way there. Kheir insyaAllah ^^

20.12 ^^

Ahlan Wa Sahlan....Welcome 2012 ^^

oK, I know that it has been a few weeks since the 1st January....

I have been very very busy with my LIFE & did not have time to update it in this blog.

Therefore, most of my stories, I shared it with my one & only beloved diary. hehehe. So dont bother to read this blog as it will be abandon soon. *evil laugh*

ok done! May Allah bless all of us...Ameen ;)