See u later...!

Right now, I can sense the smell of ikan goreng bakar, which came from my Mahallah cafe, which was located just 500m (estimation only) from my room.

Astaghfirullah...I'm fasting rite now...and this smell aroused my temptation!

Ok ok...today, I just had 2 test; 1 learning midterm and 1 quiz HR.

Alhamdulillah...I am able to answer MOST of the questions, although I started to revise this week. I think I am able to do it because I concentrated and focused mostly in the class. I think so...but well, just wait for the result. Hope that everything will be just fine. InsyaAllah...

This year Ramadhan, has taught me a lot of things. Eventhough it was just the beginning of it, I had already learnt a Lot!

Sometimes, we have to let go of things or people who are dear to us. Because all these things can distract us from getting near to our God..

After the incident of giving letter to W, things changed between us.

We are not as close as before. He didn't sms me as usual. I don't wanna think of the negative things.

So for the time being, I will let him go for a while... Let him have his own space. Cause I care. That is why.

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Money Matters

I had my first Ramadhan's emotional test today...

Went to the Finance early in the morning to collect my financial slip, which I applied last Wednesday....

After received it, I got to know that I had to pay RM7K for the remaining fees!!!

I was surprised...I asked for the clarification, but not too detail. The front desk sister told me that I have not pay the fees for my 1st sem in my second year. Let me repeat it again, in my SECOND YEAR! And now, I have to prove my payment by showing the receipts. And the problem is: I am not the type who will keep receipts!!! Haiz....

Please please pray for me....

Hope

Just came back from the Jumuaah prayer...

It's have been a looong time since I do congregational prayer...Usually I did the prayer alone, in my room because I am too lazy to go to the mosque...hehe

But today, I got to do it. YeaY! ;)

And I did something today...

I gave W a letter!

Alah-alah love letter gitu... HAHAHA... Yeah rite! No laaa...just a normal letter. The idea appeared out of my boredom these few days. hehe

And the content of the letter?

HaaaaH...dats only between me & him. hehe

Month of Forgiveness and Mercy

We are now entering the Holy month of Ramadhan...

Am preparing myself to enter the battlefield with my own desire...

Must increase my discipline and self-awareness...

Must increase my passion in doing good deeds and spread love...

Must stop wasting my time...

and

Be a Good Muslimah and Servant to Allah...

Ameen =)

Moments

Alhamdulillah coz most of the things that happened in my life as the way that I had expected....

Thank you Allah for those wonderful people in life...

I appreciate them as much as I appreciated myself...

I love them so much that sometimes I don't care much about myself...

But somehow, I do realized that there are NOTHING in this world that will last forever...

I know that I will have to let them go, no matter what.... It is either they will leave me or I will leave them...

And for this MoMent, just let me enjoy and treasure them in my heart as they will always remained there...

Thank you, ALLAH

Ponder

I am supposed to go out rite now, but am lazy coz I slept late yesterday. I could not sleep because I slept a lot during the day. And this morning, I was waken up by Sarah.

She woke me up bcoz one of the Dr. (which we volunteered to help with her research) called her and asked her to forward info of the missing PAPER. Let us rewind a bit....

PREVIOUSLY: There is this one Dr. who asked for our help to get info for her research. Sarah, W and me decided to help. One day, we met her and handed her the info on a piece of PAPER. And at the same time, W help out by asking his parent for some info.

NOW: So she LOST the PAPER. Ok fine! Then she called Sarah and asked her to forward her the info, which of course, I did NOT make any copy of it. Then I remember that W said his parent already email him the info. Then I decided to call W. And it was 7+ in the MORNING. I was pissed off a little, but never mind. And as I expected, W still asleep. I called him for several time and luckily he called me back on the _ _ th (which I cannot recall) time. After he help us out, I try to get back to sleep, but cannot. Texted with W until he ignore me. Well...thats it!

Now let us do some pondering...

Why are certain things are hard to get, while others are easy?

Hmmm...I think, it is for the purpose to teach us on how to be thankful and appreciate things more... This is because, when we get things through hardship, we will tend to appreciate it more, than those that are easy to get....

For example in my situation it is: marriage. I really want to get married, but somehow there are no one for me could look upon to. However, I will not give up and will continue my search. It is true that the person will come to you, but you still have to try. And for now, I did not befriend with any guys, except for W (coz he is my bestman). W scolded me for not making friend with guys....Well, I have my own reason and that is I am saving myself from falling into the wrong guy.

I know myself well. I am the kind who will fall easily for someone who is close to me (except for W coz there are many reasons). The previous relationships I had are enough to teach me what my mistakes are. I want to keep a safer gap between me and my guyfriends.

And recently, I did something which I was not suppossed to do with W!!!!!

We did something together and then, out of my stupidity, I told him that I feel like I wanna to ask his hand for marriage! WTH...There, you see....I cannot get too close with any guys. ANd luckily that W did not take it seriously (well, I did not sound serious, of course!). He laughed and said that I am funny. YEaH...you damn right, W! Thanks for not taking it seriously....

And the question now is, am I not that serious?

Well, from the deepest of my heart, I do feel a little bit of attraction towards W. It is impossible for two souls, from opposite gender, who are INTIMATE and having no feeling at all. I admit that I do have feelings for him, but not to the extent of wanting him to be my husband. NO!

Another question is: What if He is the ONe?

If that is the case, then I will have to think about it first. If he is mature enough, he will know exactly what to do. I do not want to say or ask for much bcoz I trust him. I do have faith in him but I do not have high expectation on him. I do want to burden him. He is my first and only bestman in this world. I appreciate him sooooo much that I do not him to get hurt.

Thank ALLAH for letting me to know him...

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AuGusTo

HOLa Peeps!!!

Como estas? (How are you?)
Espero que estén multa (Hope you're fine)

I'm currently into the sPanish mood...heeee~

Donno why but I'm just interested in this language... Wish that I could learn it...but not now... I gotta lotsa things to do right now...

I'll be having a lot of events next week. The Singapore National Day fall this Sunday. Did not care to go back and did not bother to go back. I am too lazy to travel around. Hehehe

There will be 3 important programmes next week:
(1) The National Day Dinner @ Shangri La - 10th Aug
(2) The National Day Celebration - 11th Aug
(3) The UQS Programme - 12th Aug

And I am looking forward to all of them...Weeee~

Oh yeah, and today, I had a grrrrreat day at my uni. I went out for awhile - to withdraw some cash. Went out with W. Had a great time with him. Wish that I have more time to spent in this uni. Hmmmm.....