BlameS

Assalamualaikum

If you wanna blame others, I do rather takes that blame and put it on ME.

It is a bit weird when people started blaming others for THEIR own faults.



I have been doing a lot of thinking lately...

What is the benefit of blaming others?

Do you REALLY satisfied after you blame other people?

I said this, does NOT means that I do NOT blame others...well, sometimes I dO. AS human, we will always do. but then, when we reached to a certain LIMIT, we will start thinking.

Why do I have to blame others when I am the ONE who decided everything?

Others may have effect on you, but YOU are the one who decide whether want to be affected or not.

Bcoz it is YOUR feelings and it is YOURSELF.

If something happened out of your expectation, take times to calm yourself. Then MOVE ON.

After all, if it is MEANT TO BE, it is MEANT to be. Even without any helps from anyone.

Only ALLAH knows the best ;)

Cheers people!

19 years & beyond...

Assalamualaikum

I feel happy today! Alhamdulillah =) I got the chance to meet some of my wonderful friends...And most of all, I got to meet with Nadia, my 'oldest' friend in this world...

We have been friend since primary One, that is when I was like 7 years old...and up till now (please do the math on your own), we still keep in touch and shared our vision and series of our lives...Hehehe...

Me & Nad

She is such a wonderful friend...who will always willing to listen to my ramblings and annoying comments, will always hear my stories and tell her amusing stories. And I really find that MOST of her stories are amazing! She is funny and adorable. Never fail to make me laugh. Always concern about my current situation and even willing to help me in finding for me a future husband! Great isn't it? Heeee~

May ALLAH grant her happiness in this life and the hereafter. Ameeen...

Ok, besides meeting with her, I went for the solemnization of one of my former schoolmates, Susie...The event was simple and one of the best thing is that: it was held in a MOSQUE! It is one of my dream to do my solemnization in a mosque too! =)

Below are some of the captured moments:

The Shy Bride

The Calm Groom

The Excited Girl

The Great Sister

After that, we went to Swensens for some chillax moment...

Rabiul & DaLiLah

Khudaijah & me

The Burning Waiter
The Fondue *YummY*

So we sat there for like an hour and doing some story-telling and updates. Nadia told us about the incident about the late 'Giant' who passed away in Cairo. It is like a wake up call for me after hearing to such stories.

This life, I have been taking it for granted. Always procrastinating things that are important and pursue things that are not even worth at all...

But now, Alhamdulillah...after that night, I realized that I have to be strong. I will not going to bother about my love life anymore. This may sounds wrong. Ok, let me put it correctly. I will think about it, but not going to emphasize on it anymore. Previously, I put too much concern into it. Always worried, concerned and whatever la. but now, I will try to be strong. and when the right person comes, I will tie the knot. InsyaAllah =)

All these things will go along the way. But right now, I will have to do important things which I have been neglected for the past few years...such as, purifying my heart and soul. I want to reconnected with my Creator. so that when the time come for me to face him, I can face him in a good condition. I do not want to face HIM in a bad condition. because HE had created in a good condition. Therefore, I will have to return to HIM in that way too.

I know that it will not be an easy way. Therefore I am asking duaa (prayers) from you =)

I pray the best for all of you too, my lovely readers! Jazakumullah khair. May Allah bless!

So Far...

Assalamualaikum

Today I have just completed my training...Finally, Alhamdulillah.

It had been 4 days of training, then next Monday will soon be the General Meeting and I will gonna start my career OFFICIALLY on Tuesday. Wuhooo...I can't wait!

I know that it will be tiring, stressful, exhausted etc. but somehow I POSITIVELY feel that I am going to enjoy it more...

Ok, so you wanna know what I am doing for my career rite now?

Well, I apply as Kindergarten Teacher in HANIS Montessori..It was unexpected for me to get the job actually... The story was like this: During one of my IIUM senior's wedding, I saw Sya spec and asked her if there is any job vacancy at her work, do tell me. Then she told me to email my resume to her boss...So I did as what she told me.

Then a week after dat, I received a phonecall, asking me to go for an interview in Tampines. I went for the interview, and was quite suprised to find that the one who going to interview me is one of my schoolmate! Waaaah...I was thinking that it is gonna be easy but I kept it at the professional level.

And so, I got the job. Alhamdulillah. I was relieved. I did not expect so much although the job had always be one of my DREAM JOB. Some people may find it stupid and say "Why must you want to be a kindergarten teacher, after you went for your degrees?"

And this is what I am going to answer: "I will go for what I like to do. I have passion for it. So I am going to do it."

Wish me luck, people. And I know that it is gonna be hard but FUN. Heeee~

Little Things

Assalamualaikum

When you are enjoying the little things in your life, you will feel happier than ever...Alhamdulillah...

That is what I felt for these past few days...

I have started my first full-time work...but not exactly the working part. I have just started the training part. It is fun, but sometimes I do get bored...but most of the time, I enjoyed! heeee~

There is a lot of things that I have learnt and I got to meet with new people! yeay! hehehe...

I enjoyed meeting them and although I know that I may not be close to them, I am grateful to get to know them. However, I DO miss my friends and adek2 in IIUM...but life have to go on... When I chatted or talked with them, I will tell them how I missed them so much, shared with them my stories and so on....

I will always enjoy the smallest things in my life and I am grateful to have them. Thank you Allah...

I wanna share with you about my current working place, but got no time. Mayb later k.
So, remember this: Enjoy the small things in your life. You will never gonna regret! ;)

Take care people =)

First Step

Assalamualaikum

At first, when I finished my studies in IIUM, I thought that I have done learning... I dont want to learn anymore...

But instead, I realized that learning is a life-long journey...you will learn as long as you are breathing and walking on this earth...

And that is what I am doing right now...

Learning...not working =)

As My Age Added...

Assalammualaikum

Just came back from a concert...It was indeed great and fun! I will post the pic later k...

Today, is my 26th birthday, but somehow I couldnt feel anything different at all....

I remembered that I heard someone said: "On your birthday, the first person who you should thank is your MOTHER. Bcoz of her struggle and hardship, you are born in this world."

And through this opportunity, I would like to thanks my MOM and DAD bcoz they will NEVER stop believe in me. Although sometimes (or most of the time) I am stubborn, arrogant etc. , I didnt mean it. I acted like that due to my stupidity and lack of maturity. And deep deep deep down in my heart, I love You both more than anyone else in this world.

Ayah, Ibu & Nenek

and most of all,

Thank YOu Allah for giving me such a wonderful parent!

Hati & yang sewaktu dengannya

Assalammualaikum


Kadang2 ada mata, tapi tak nampak

Kadang2 ada telinga, tapi tak dengar

Kadang2 ada hati, tapi tak rasa

Mungkin kerana diri ini JAUH dari Tuhan

Sebab itu tak dapat nak nampak, dengar dan rasa dgn BETOL



Aku bertanya pada seorang teman:

"Macam mana kita nak lupakan orang ye?"

Dia menjawab:

"Berbual dgn Tuhan, kak. Minta tolong dgn DIA. Sebab hanya DIA yang boleh bantu kuatkan diri kita."


Betul la.

AKu jauh dari Tuhan.

Tapi kini aku kembali.

Sudikah KAU menerima ku? :_(

Rindulaaaah...

Assalammualaikum

Woke up quite early bcoz mum wanna go to work. And I had a lot of things to do today. Besides continuing my room make-over, I have to meet Syu to collect my ticket for the Malam Kebudayaan Islam. OMG. I cant wait. Seriously. I has been playing inside my mind, to see my adek2 perform again...All the best, adek2 ku =)

And rite now, IDK why I am missing badly these two little rascals....wohoooo...

Abdullah


Abd Aziz

Their innocent faces and smile...

Their charming characteristics...

Their naughty and cheeky way to get your attention....

I missed them so badly!

ok...

and yeah, Last night at slept around 2am and when I woke up this morning, I realised that someone just texted me, wishing me Good night at 245 am (like, 2 in the morning?) It is suppossed to be morning not night, rite? ok, whatever lah...

That someone is....W.

Hhmmmmm.....

I tot I said goodbye to him already. *wondering*

New LeaF

Assalamualaikum

What did I do today?

I stayed home and unpacked my boxes, re-organized my wardrobe and decorated my room! Yeay!
Below are the result of my hard work..haha

BEFORE

AFTER

So what do you think? Nice rite? *perasan*

Dis tyme around, I wanna make my room feel like a princess...I wanna decorate it more and more, but will have to wait for more cash to come in first...no money how can decorate ma? *see, I write also like singlish now*

HAhaha...

And just like my room, I am also emerging into a new person...

Today is the 1st of Muharram... I am not changing bcoz of this maal hijrah thingy...but bcoz I want to...

Bye-bye MY PAST

Bye-bye IIUM

Bye-bye W

And Hello Future ;)

Owh and hello to my adek2 and girlfrens...u gurls will always remain forever *muacks*

Mistakes

Assalamualaikum...

"Mistakes are proof that we are trying..."


"Do not called it mistake but called it an experience..."


There are sooooo many things that people do just to make others feel good about themselves after they have done something which is wrong....

Just like myself.

After we did something that is wrong, we will always said this to ourselves:

Never mind. It is just a mistake. Everybody make mistakes. Try not to repeat it again.

But somehow, we will repeat it sooner or later. UNLESS we are truly regret it and promise to ourselves (which is a REAL promise) not to repeat it eventhough we will have to die by not doing it.

I have done sooooooooooo many mistakes throughout the 25 years of my life...

And there are some mistakes which I really really really regret it, and there are some which I enjoyed not really regret, but I have my OWN reason of doing it...

Do I sounds evil?

I hope not, coz I am not evil. I am just being myself.

And again, there are some mistakes which I did it on purpose just for the sake of learning....

I do not actually bother what others wanna say, coz whatever it is, all are depends on ME.

I am the one who can really decide whether I want to be good or bad, innocent or daredevil, liar or sincere etc.

Others may have the power to influence me. but I have the right to decide.

And yes, later in the hereafter, when I will be asked on my past actions during my life... I am the one who will answer it.

Coz I do not want to blame others. After all, I am responsible for everything that happened it my life.

And YOU, just sit back and enjoy the ShoW. Thank You =)

Irreplaceable

Assalammualaikum

Right now, I'm in IIUM.

Coming here with the intention to finish up my driving license and clear my financial issue. Been here for 6 days already.

I had my driving test on Wednesday. I passed but the hill & parking part, but have to repeat the road part. *sigh* Well, at least, there is a REASON for me to come to KL again, right? Hehehe...I think that I might probably do the test in January or February. I do not want to repeat it as soon as possible because I will begin my work in the 2 more weeks. Therefore, I will have to see my working schedule and then, I can plan for my future. =)

I am glad that things between me and W are okay. and I am glad that he is not the type who will gonna entertain my nonsense. Hahaha.

And yeah,

My gurlfrens,

My families,

My adek-adeks,

My one and only bestfren...

All those are IRREPLACEBLe.

They will always be special in every way they are.

from the BOTTOM OF MY HEART:

I LOVE Them!

Through My Window - Bunkface

I dont want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, its just another day
Telling me why, Ill find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now theres me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see theres
More than you and more than me
Me and you
And we are not alone
Different view
We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Cant exist like this anymore

Now theres me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see theres
More than you and more than me

WHATever

Assalammualaikum

Indeed life is full of surprises! That is why I lurve surprises! *winks*

I dont really bother what job i get, who I will end up with...I really really really didnt mind at all. But it doesnt mean that I dont have a goal or vision in life.... It is just that I am not a choosy type. Therefore, as long as the job is related to my interest and passion, I will go for it!

And you know what....

This morning, I RECEIVED a phonecall for an intervieW!!!!!

Alhamdulillah~

It is one of my DREAM JOBS. I didnt really expect to get the feedback this fast. I send my resume thru email last friday. And....TADAAAA....a phonecall! weeee~

However, I am a bit scared for this interview. I really really really CAN feel butterflies flying around in my tummy. Huhuhu.

The reason of why I DISLIKES interview:

1. I have to appear FORMAL (hate iT! Im not a formal person, I hate formal events etc)

2. They like to ask SILLY questions - do you notice that I put it SILLY, becoz there is no such things as stupid question.

3. I feel like being INTERROGATEd.

4. I have to appear at my BEST.

5. People will SOMEHOW have some EXPECTATIONS on you - be it many or little.

Well, i know that some of the reasons are irrelevant, but never mind.

Whatever it is, I just hope that I manage to overcome all those reasons. Sometimes, you DO have to face things that you did not want. *sigh*

Pray for me.

____________________________________________________________________

Recently, I have been keeping my status as a PART TIME BABYSITTER.

Yeah, you heard me right.

That is what I have been doing for these past few days.

My sister is here in Singapore with her two kiddos. And well, I learnt a LOT. *phew*

I remembered there is this one time, when I was about to enter the bathroom, then her 2nd son (Aziz) said:

"Khalah, baca doa..." (which means: Aunty, recite the supplication..)

And immediately I recited it aloud. The same goes when I came out from the bathroom. (And he actually WAITED for me to come out!!! hahaha)

Then, I found that is is FUN to see kids fight. Why is that so?

Well, I discovered that kids can EASILY get back together again. They WON'T held any grudges against each other. They will fight, then will not talk, and then, within 5-10 minutes after that, you will realize that they will play together again.

Wonderful, rite? *Subhanallah*

If kids could act like that, why can't we as Adults, be better than them? Something to ponder about.

____________________________________________________________________

A little confession: I'm kinda of MISSING remembering someone right now.

Yeah. I confessed that it is HARD to let go of that someone. All the memories that I had With that someone are soooo hard to let go. tWo years + seven months. That someone really did left something in my life.

I'm trying my best here. Very Hard.

Ok, enough talking. Wanna sleep.

Assalammualaikum

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Now playing: d'yat - The same damn story
via FoxyTunes

Passion

My Unstoppable Passion


Presenting:

The Clouds (how I wish I can be there...up above and always floating...)

Just look at how small we are from up above the sky *sigh*

Subhanallah




MasyaAllah




Assalammualaikum

Maju Terus...

Baju sama, tapi isi lain *winks*

Assalammualaikum...

Dyah tengah kerajinan untuk nak update blog. So bare with me k... Kalau Dyah membebel apa2, dengarkan je la...

Ok, dah seminggu Dyah kat Singapore. Tak sabar nak alek Malaysia Eh, dah tak payah gi Malaysia lagi. Yahooooooooooooooooo~ Melainkan kalau ada urusan atau untuk holiday... Selain dari tu, Malaysia hanya lah sekadar kenangan =)

Dalam seminggu ni, takde buat benda sangat pun. Duduk rumah, kebosanan, tengok laptop, kemas bilik, kemas rumah, kemas laptop, kuar jumpa kawan2, siapkan resume & cuba apply mana2 keja yang ada... Kalau ada rezeki, insyaAllah tak kemana ;)

Macam gitu jugak dengan jodoh dan ajal... 3 benda ni, kita tak payah nak fikir sangat. Apa yang penting cuma USAHA & jangan sekali2 berputus asa...

Sebab tu Dyah nak maju dan gerak terus...kalau omputih kata "MOVE ON". Hah...macam gitulah...

Memang senang bila cakap, tapi kalau nak buat....MasyaAllah..Hanya Allah saja yang tahu.

Untuk jalan terus & tak pandang belakang ni, memang payah sgt kalau tak kuat.

Cuba kita tengok eh:

*berapa ramai orang yang tak kawin akibat putus cinta & terbayang2 kekasih lama?



*berapa ramai orang yang masih bermusuhan kerana tak dapat nak maafkan kesalahan lalu?



*berapa ramai orang mengalami tekanan perasaan kerana gagal dalam kehidupan & merasakan hidup itu tak patot diteruskan?

Jawapannya: Ramai.

Semoga kita tak tergolong dalam orang2 begini. Na'uzubillah...

Kadang2 bila tengok orang ada someone special, rasa jeles dan stress sikit. Tapi Dyah masih dapat kawal diri lagi.

Dyah teringat seorang sahabat pernah buat luahan:

"Kak, macam mana rasa ada pakwe?"

"Mula2 best la, tapi kena banyak sabar la. Tapi overall, tak best."

"Tu la. Saya ni tak penah ada matair. Kadang2 bila tengok orang ada matair. Stress jugak. Tapi sabar je."

"Bagos la. Awak kena kuat. Takmo ikutkan perasaan sangat. Sabar tu ada ganjaran dia."

"Tapi susah betol kan nak jumpa orang baik..?"

"Memang susah. Tapi tu semua ada hikmah. Lantaran kesusahan itu lah, kita akan lebih menghargai kalau kita dah jumpa nanti. Sabar k. Sampai masa nanti, datanglah putera raja awak tu..."

"Hehe...InsyaAllah. Untuk akak jugak."

"InsyaAllah..."

Selesai perbualan ringkas tu, Dyah berbisik pada diri: "Aku kagum dengan kecekalan dan kesabaran dia."

Sahabat Dyah tu tak pernah ada hubungan istimewa dengan mana2 lelaki. Dia kata dia nak tunggu dan sabar untuk suaminya saja. Bagos betol! Tak macam Dyah ni. Haiz.... Dah pernah ada dulu, cukuplah. Sekarang Dyah nak simpan hati ini, untuk orang2 yang pandai menghargai Dyah & bakal suami saja. InsyaAllah.

Oh, btw kan, Dyah nak korang semua tahu yang Dyah tak menentang sesapa yang nak ada matair ke, pakwe ke, balak ke, jati ke & yang sewaktu dengannya..

Itu semua terpulang yang empunya HATI k. Kalau korang sayang HATI korang, pilih la yang mana korang rasa baik ;)

Dyah hanya menentang benda ni untuk diri Dyah saja. Sebab Dyah nak jaga diri ni untuk bakal suami tersayang. Dyah tak nak bazirkan perasaan untuk orang2 yang tak menjamin apa2. Kita ni manusia. Kita perlukan jaminan. Sebab itu, untuk manusia ni, ALLAH sediakan syurga dan neraka itu sebagai jaminan. Kita KENA ada benda2 macam gitu untuk meningkatkan usaha kita.

Sama jugak dengan HATI ni. Buat apa lah bagi hati kat orang yg tak menghargai kita, yang tak sudi nak dengan kita.

Dyah selalu ingat pesanan nenek: "Dyah, kalau nak cari suami, cari orang yang SUDI dengan kita ye...."

InsyaAllah...Dyah akan terus cari & tak akan putus asa. Semoga dipermudahkan segalanya. Ameeen....

Missing TheM!

Nothing much to say:

Just hope that they are doing well

and

May Allah's blessings shine on them always.


Ameen =)

For YOU

Assalammualaikum

This post is dedicated specially for someone special.

She is sweet, nice and easily to be loved.

She got this small and attractive eyes, sweet smile and cute laugh.

She loves to play games, shopping and chilling is the 'in' thing for her. She always hear my ramblings, whines etc. She never care about what people wanna say about her. She loves to talk and share her stories with me.

And most of all, she is being herself. and that what makes me LoVe her more.

And her name is:

*SITI AISYAH*

Thanks for the smile

Thanks for the friendship

Thanks for everything

and

Happy Happier Happiest Birthday!

Penjelasan

Assalammualaikum

Tentang luahan perasaan Dyah semalam, Dyah nak semua tahu yang Dyah sama sekali TIDAK menyalahkan W. Malah, dyah bersyukur sangat dapat kawan mcm dia.

Dengan kehadiran dia, Dyah dapat belajar untuk lebih menghargai kawan...

Dengan kehadiran dia, Dyah dapat mengenali kelemahan diri...

Dengan kehadiran dia, Dyah dapat jadi lebih kuat dari yang sebelumnya...

Walaupun kita selalu gaduh...kadang2 tak bertegur-sapa sehari dua...tapi Dyah maseh hargai dia sebagai seorang kawan. Kita pernah kongsi sesuatu.

Apa yang Dyah kongsi semalam, hanyalah sekadar luahan. Dah lepas tu, dah tak simpan apa2 lagi. Walaupun terkilan, tapi Dyah sedia maafkan dia. Sebab Dyah tak suka berdendam. Bukan nak step baik, cuma memang ni DIRI Dyah. Dyah tak pandai nak marah lama2, malas nak dendam2...rasa buang masa je.

Kadang2 tulis pasal benda2 mcm gini pun, rasa tak penting. Sebab perasaan kan. Bila2 masa boleh berubah.

Ok, cukuplah cerita ttg W. kerana dia hanya persinggahan. Semua benda kat dunia ni hanya sementara sbb ni kan tempat persinggahan.

Ada benda yang lebih penting untuk Dyah fikirkan.

Dyah dah banyak sangat buat salah. Dyah tak nak terus buat salah lagi.... Dyah tahu org mesti cakap belakang Dyah sebab Dyah pun kadang2 cakap pasal orang... Biarlah selagi diorang boleh bercakap.... Teruskanlah...

Yang penting dyah tahu apa yang dyah buat. Titik.

Assalammualaikum.

Perasaan Saya

Assalammualaikum

Ok. nak cuba tulis dalam bahasa Melayu. Ayoosh dah cuba. Sekarang giliran dyah pula. Hehe..

Dalam hidup ini, terlalu banyak keputusan yang kita kena buat. Sebab tu kita kena pilih betol2. Tapi kalau org mcm dyah ni, yang selalu berubah2 fikiran, susah sikit la...Dyah mmg tak pandai nak buat keputusan yg penting, tapi Dyah nak cuba jugak. Dyah tak nak berputus asa.

Macam gitu jugak dgn perasaan ni.

Suka kat orang, tapi orang tak suke kat kita. Kadang tu pulak, kita tak suka kat orang, tapi orang suka kat kita. Layan je laaaa. Kadang2 penat nak layan perasaan ni. Dyah bukan nye seorang yang suka layan perasaan, tapi orang selalu ingat Dyah takde perasaan. Kenapa eh?

Dyah kawan dgn W. Baik dengan dia. Tapi kadang2 dia tak faham Dyah. Dyah penah tanya dia, dia anggap Dyah sebagai apa. Dia kata kawan rapat. Tapi macam gini ke kawan?

Bukan ke kawan kena kongsi susah & senang bersama?

Bukan ke kawan kena ada bila kita perlukan seseorang?

Bukan ke kawan kena saling tolong-menolong?

Tapi tu semua Dyah tak rasa bila dengan W. Ini betol-betol, bukan cobaan.

Selalu Dyah je yang dengar masalah dia. Masalah Dyah? Jangan haraplah dia nak tanya. Dyah je yang kadang2 cerita atau minta pendapat dia.

Semua tentang dia. Dia suka perempuan tu, dia stress dengan budak tu, dia ada masalah ni, mcam2 la....Tentang Dyah?

Dyah tak harap dia concern pasal dia. Cuma SEKARANG ni, Dyah baru sedar yang selama ni PERSAHABATAN kita berat sebelah. Dyah tak harapkan balasan dari dia, tapi Dyah cuma nak dia tahu yang Dyah ni manusia. Masih ada perasaan. Masih ada hati.

Kalau sesapa yang baca Blog Dyah ni & kenal dgn W, sila la pesan dgn dia.

Dyah hargai dia sebagai kawan. Dyah tak marah. Dyah tak sedih. Cuma Dyah terkilan.

Kita semua manusia. Setiap perbuatan kita ada batas. Nak jadi baik, ada batas. Nak jadi jahat pun ada batas. Dyah tahu W pun manusia. Ada kelemahan. Dyah akan maafkan kalau itu yg dipinta. Cuma Dyah nak di dengar dan nak DIA tahu.

Cukup lah 2 tahun Dyah lalui. Agaknya sebab tu la antara lelaki & perempuan tak boleh rapat sgt. Mungkin.

Dyah TAK salahkan dia. Sebab apa yang terjadi pada diri Dyah, Dyah yang pilih. Dyah nak dia tahu supaya dia tak akan buat orang lain mcm mana dia buat Dyah.

Dan sekarang ni, keputusan Dyah untuk tinggalkan dia. Walaupun amat berat dan payah, Dyah nak cuba. Sebab....

Dyah dah penat.

Assalammualaikum =)

Next Step

Exam just finished! YeaY! Alhamdulillah~

Counting my days to go back to Sg...

Goodbye kL...goodbye Malaysia... After sooooo long been there, many memories are created and many people i have missed...for those who I did not get to meet, it does not mean that I have forgot about you...no way... It is just that I did not get the chance to meet with you... Throw aside your worries...cause for every one of my friends will never ever be forgotten... I will always send duaa for you...and that is a PROMISE! ;)

Am still figuring out for what to do in my future.. I got sooo many plans in my mind rite now... Some are realistic, and some are just for fun...hehehe

But whatever it is, I will just move along with the flow... Whatever appears upon me, I will either grab it or simply reserve it for my future...


And right now, I will have to memorize the steps for parking...because I got my driving test this Wednesday...YIKES! Pray for me ya.... =)

Exams

Dear readers,

time really fly so fast, huh?

I just felt like yesterday I arrived in Singapore, and tomorrow I will be going back to KL. Huhuhu...

Cepatnyeeee... tak puas jumpa my fabulous cuzin cum fren, CT....pastu nak jumpa ramai2 org lagi...but what to do...life is like that...you have to sacrifice in order to gain something good for the future...


And the day will finally come....

My first paper -----> This Sunday!

Im physically & mentally ready for it! insyaAllah...Pray for me k...

Push

I PUSHED him away

but

he keep coming back to me.

What should I do?

Home Sweet Home

I'm BaaaaaaaaacK in Singapore!!!!

Alhamdulillah...just arrived around 8+ pm. Ayah pick me up @ Golden Mile. It was a tiring journey + fun! heee~ Although it was sooooo long, but I had fun in the bus by myself.

Haha. Sounds funny, rite? Well, I really DID had some fun. I did some observations on peoples' attitude inside the bus. How they react in a long journey, what they usually do etc. I also had a chance to write in my journal! Woah..writing in a moving vehicle is not my favourite actually. But, I want to kill the time, so I reach for my pen & wrote whatever come to my mind...


It have been so long since I updated things/events that happened in my life. It is not that I do not want to. but sometimes I am too busy til forgot to update the current situation of my life.


Well, right now, we are in the EXAM fever. Wohoooo~

My first paper will be on the 8th of Nov, followed by another one is on the 16th of Nov. What a long GAP! huhuhu

After that, I will have my pre-test & the REAL test for my driving license. Takoootnyeee. Huhuhu. The fear of driving exam is more intense than my final exams...hahaha.

Ok, that's it for now.

Practice.
REad.
REmember.
Pray.
Hope.

H. U. M. A. N.

"Seek first to understand, than understood"

After all these years, studying Psychology in IIUM, I cannot help myself not to agree with this statement.

You need to understand first before making conclusion.

You need to understand first before throwing assumption.

You need to understand first before giving opinion.

But we as human, often forget to understand OTHERS. We always think about ourselves first.

When we do this, we often saying things that we THOUGHT that we know. But instead, it is only our ASSUMPTION and mere opinions.

Some might asked: "I have been living with A for so long. And until now, I could not understand A. I had tried so hard to understand, but I can't."

Well, here are some tips in order to understand people:

1. Must bare in mind that it will be tough because people CHANGE and they will not appear 100% of themselves.

2. Bare in mind also that we could NOT understand them fully.

3. Always keep trying and never ever give up.

4. Pray to ALLAH and ask for HIS help as we are always in need of HIS help.


If these steps won't help you, then maybe you could consult others for better suggestion.

Remember that, understand and love others are more important rather than condemning and making assumption through their actions.

Human CHANGE because of some reasons. + Don't ever compare others with yourself, because each of us are different and have our own uniqueness. Find others' uniqueness and you will see the beauty of ALLAH's creations ;)

All these are also my opinions. I wrote out of my understandings of human, through observation and experiences.

Only ALLAH knows what is the best. *winks*

Confusion

Feelings sometimes can be confused...

That is why, never ever ever, trust your feeling fully.

It can be trusted unless if it is followed by prayers and guidance from God.

If not, just let it go cause it will change SOONER or LATER.

Post FAREwell

Yesterday it was.

The so-called big day for me in IIUM. Hehehe...

For my readers, who are not from IIUM or ASSIIUM, it is an event which will be held especially for those who are going to graduate for the current semester. During the event, those people will have to present whatever they had gain and shared their experiences with the juniors. Btw, it is an annual event for ASSIIUM (Association of Singapore Students of IIUM), which mean it will be organised for every semester.

When I was in my early years in IIUM, the events which I will always waited for is Taaruf and Farewell. It is my FAVOURITE event! Because during taaruf, I get to know the new students! I like to meet new people in life. REaLLY! And as for farewell, I like to listen to the experiences' of my seniors. It was really interesting!!!

And after all these years, watching people leave IIUM, it was my turn now...

The event started with recitation of some verses of Al-Quran. A video presentation which was dedicated especially for us. Then, some performances and speeches from us. During my time, I took the opportunity to voice out some of my words of wisdom. Ahaks! mcm real je aku
And as FYI, I am really NOT a serious person. Therefore, I added some jokes in my speech. It is not that I am NOT serious at all. It is just within my personality. I do not want people to be sad just because it IS my farewell. I want them to be happy, eventhough I had gone.because sadness cannot change anything.

I would have to leave everything eventhough it is hard...

Because that's what LIFE is.

You MOVE ON.

You did NOT stop at one phase.

You might be pause for a moment.

But then you will have to continue.

Just like our life in this world.

All these are just temporary.

We will leave it ONE day.

Pre-FareWELL

My farewell event is tonight. And I'm nervous. don't know what to wear. and what to talk for the speech part. Ok, let skip that part.

I'm just in the mood of blogging as I can't sleep rite now. Haiz...

Ok, let me tell you something. I've heard what people have been talking behind my back about how I have changed and not really similar to my past.

Whatever it is, let me get this damn straight to you, who might be reading this:
I AM HAPPY FOR BEING ABLE TO BE MYSELF.

Some might wonder, what about the previous me?

Well, it is still me and NOW I am ME.

So please, please and please STOP worrying about me. I might make mistakes, might fall in love, get hurt, being lied, get stabbed or whatever. It is all about MY Life.

If YOU have something that you wanna say to me, say it in front of my face. I can handle it. Don't worry. the problem is that YOU are not able to say it straight to my face.

SO when someone doesn't have the courage to say it straight to your face, does that make them a coward?

My first answer will be YES. but then, when I think properly, NO. because probably there are things that better for you NOT to know, rather than knowing it and you couldn't do anything about it.

And if you DO really concern about my LIFE, just PRAY for me k. Make DUAA for me. I'm glad when you do that. I'll appreciate that!

Oh btw, if you thought that you could know everything about my life, my secrets etc. from my blog, then You are living in a dream land, babe. Coz I'm not like gonna blog EXACTLY everything here. (I wonder, if there is even anyone who do that?) *scratch head*

Childhood Friendship

"Friendship is like a line of glasses. Handle it with care. Once it broken, it can never be repair."

Pernah dengar tak kata2 ni? Alah...dolu2 masa zaman skola kita selalu tulis kata2 mcm ni kat autograph book. Ingat lagi tak?

Masa zaman primary skool dulu, kita kawan2 masa time skola je. Time dabes skola, kita dah tak contact sgt. Kalau main2 pun, dgn kawan2 yang tinggal dekat dengan rumah je. During that period, friendship is more to those who we play with. Aku teringat masa zaman primary skool dulu.

Aku skola madrasah. Kita solat zohor & asar di skola. Suatu hari, masa solat zohor (dat time primary 3), seorang kawan baik ku kata: "Fadiah, anti nak tengok semut putih banyak2 tak?"

Aku: "Semut putih? Ada ke?"

Dia: "Ada! Time solat nanti, kita diri kat belakang sekali. Nanti masa orang sujud, kita jangan sujud dulu k..."

Aku: "Ok...!"


Dan semasa orang2 sedang sujud...


Aku: "Anti, mana semut2 putih tu?"

Dia: "Tu..." (sambil tunjuk kat orang2 yang sedang bersujud)

Aku: "Waaaaaah...A'ah la... (terpaku)


Masa dulu, tak terpikir pun yang benda tu kelakar. Aku kagum lagi ada. Dan sekarang ni, bila ingat2 balik, buatkan aku tersenyum sendiri. Kawan baik aku tu memang unik. Cara dia pandang sesuatu berbeza sungguh dari orang2 lain. Dia suka dengan benda2 yang ganjil & pelik. Tak semua orang boleh terima dengan cara dia. Tapi dia tetap jadi dirinya. Aku kagum dengannya.

Dan sekarang ni, Alhamdulillah, kerana kami masih lagi berhubung. Walaupun tak serapat dulu, tali persahabatan tetap dikuatkan dengan berhubung sekali-sekala, bertanya kabar bila teringat.

New friends are fabulous and awesome
and
Old friends are always the best!

Nothing?

Dia datang...

Kita kawan...

Pastu dia pergi...

Tanpa kata2 terakhir...

Kenapa eh?

Imperfection

HoLa peePs!

And when ourselves are imperfect, why do we always want others to be perfect?

Coz that what we ARE.

Human always want everything to be perfect, pretty, good, awesome, marvellous etc....

BUT we always forget that we are not.

THEREFORE,

Always ask for things that SUITABLE with yourself,

not what you WANT them to be.

Ayah oh Ayah

This post is dedicated especially to all fathers in this world!

They are the one who would always be there for us, and we always forget about them.

They supported us without saying much, but through actions and hopes.

They care for us but did not show much...

They are our fathers...

The unsung heroes in our life...

Always hope, pray and care for us...

Without requests, without limits...

Sometimes it is difficult to understand what they want for us,

but if we open our heart,

see from their eyes,

we will know.


"Diah nak jadi anak yg baik pada kedua orang tua Diah..."

And I believe everyone would want that too.

Therefore, appreciate everyone before you lose them ;)

Far Away

It is better for you to stay away from me
rather than staying with me

and

Get Hurt.

Bye!

Percubaan Pertama

Bismillah....

Untuk entry kali ni, nak try type dalam bahasa Melayu pulak... tapi bukan fully Malay ar...bahasa rojak la...hehehe..

Ok, so here the story goes...kita buat some recap sikit k ;)

Friday: Hari yang BEST! Gi HS dalam pukul 11 sebab nak brunch. Sampai je, ramai adek2 yang dah ada kat situ. Diorang sibuk2 nak pre-reg, tgk schedule etc. Al-maklumlah, first year. Teringat masa aku first year dolu2. hehehe... Ok, pastu gi class kul 12, dengan harapan akan dapat balik semula mid-term. Tapi hampeh! Tak tahu nape. Lecturer tak cakap pun. Huhu. Cuma yg penting, ada presentation & pengumuman yang class pada Selasa pagi, akan ditukarkan pada Isnin Malam. OH NO!!!! Aku paling tak suka class malam. but what to do....REdha jer la...OK, Pas class, contact Nuya sebab nak practice drive. Then nuya kata, dia amek aku pas solat Jumaat. sO aku pegi la masjid dulu untuk bersolat Jumaat. Lepas solat, aku dapat main2 drive dgn Nuya, Sakinah & Loy. Best sangat2! Aku dah suka & tak takot lagi untuk drive. ALhamdulillah =) Practice sampai petang. Then malam tu, Bluefairy & MooN datang bilik aku. Kita buat sesi Kara-OK gila2. Hahaha...mmg best untuk nak menghilangkan stress.


Saturday: Turun HS dalam pukul 1045am dengan Sarah. Jumpa MOon & EDa. Bebual2 kejap. Then jumpa Bluefairy & Asier. Farhan pun sampai. BEbual2 jap, pastu diorang nak kuar. Tinggallah aku dgn Farhan je. Pastu, Farhan nak gi amek robe untuk kak Sarah, so tinggal lah aku sorang dgn barang2. hehe. Masa tgh duduk sorang, jumpa OpeL, Fasihah & Shitah. Ramai nye orang yang aku jumpa niari. Hepinyeeeee. Hehehe.

Dalam pukul 1230+, W datang sbb nak amek muvee dari aku. Mula2 tu, dia kata malas nak datang sbb hari tu hujan. Dia malas nak bangun. Abeh, lepas aku dah marah2 dia, dia datang jugak. sbb aku dah penat2 bawak laptop, abeh senang2 je nak cancel. Haiyo...ingat aku ni apa? Nak tak nak, dia kena la turun jugak walaupun lambat. Hehehe. Nasib baik aku lama jugak kat HS.

Bila dia dah sampai, semangat nak tunjuk aku video2 bola yang dia save. Aku pun layan je. Memang best ar. Skill diorg SUPERB! Kalah pemain2 yg professional ;) Kita duduk lama jugak. Lepas zohor tu, aku jumpa Megat & Shady. W pun ada jugak. Tapi kita bebual tanpa menghiraukan dia yang duduk disebelah aku...Hahaha. cian dia But, who cares? Dia pun tak kisah...hehehe. Tapi bila dia dah boring, dia pun decide untuk membawa dirinya keluar. Hehe. Aku teruskan perbualan aku dgn shady & Megat. Best Lah!! Dah lama tak jumpa, so macam2 cerita keluar. hehehe. Dalam pukul 3 gitu, aku alek. Megat hantar sampai Mahallah. weeee~

Lepas asar, keluar Lagi =D. Berangkat dari UIA dgn Hyni, Nuya & Zimah. Jumpa Bluefairy & ASier. Pegi Times Square. Masa OTW tu, Dyat sms. Aku ajak dia join kita. Then dia pun kata Ok. Kita gi makan kat Secret REcipe. Then half way tu, Dyat sampai. Dia blanja kita!!! Wuhooooo~
Hepi tak terkata. Kalau tahu dia nak belanja, aku order yang mahal2 sey Hehehe.
Lepas makan tu, gi solat & main bowling. AKu tak main sbb Bowling is not my thing, so jadi observer je la. Aku dapat beli satu baju. heeeee~ Overall of the outing, BEST!

Sunday: Pagi2 lagi dah keluar untuk nak support budak2 main netball. Game habis dalam pukul 12 lebih. Kita pegi lunch kat HS. Then balek, tido jap. Dlm pukul 3+ gitu, Light datang bilik. Share2 story & tgk VMA. Kekek sey ketawa. Mepek betol. Dia stay sampai maghrib. Then, lepas tu, aku sambung tgk muvee. muvee marathon habis ar. Nak habiskan muvee2 dalam lappy ni, jadi boleh delete. heeee~


OK, enough of the recap.

Lately ni kan, aku rasa aku ada potensi untuk jadi Ahli Pemikir Negara la. hehehe. Selalu memikirkan benda2 yang tak penting (ada jugaklah yg penting). Kadang2 tak nak fikir, tapi tak dapat nak elak. So, aku nak try control la.


Owh one more thing, I think my feelings towards someone have changed. I DO realize that he is my bestfriend, but I can't help falling for him. However, from days to days, this feeling keep fading and I soon realized that I am coming back to like him as my bestfriend! Weeee~ I am happy with these feelings transition of mine ;) I will not have to think on ways of how to express my true feelings for him. YeaY! And indeed, feelings are not permanently static. It can be change through time and experience. However, the TRUE original feelings will always remain the same. Just like this feeling of mine. A bestfriend will always remain a BESTFRIEND x)

AlaMaaaaaaaaaaaK...mana Melayu aku? Haiz....

EnD

For every beginning thing in this world, there will always be the end.

That goes the same for me.

After these 4 years, studying in IIUM, it will be the time for me to leave. SooN.

A lot of my friends kept reminding me on how many more months I left for me to stay here (IIUM). And for those who kept reminding me, I will scold them. Haha. So you don't have to remind me k...coz I will feel as if waiting for my day to die...Huhuhu...


So right now, I'm not going to think about all those leaving-IIUM-thing... I will just continue with my remaining life as student. I want to enjoy every moment of it.


And Right now, I am looking forward to ----> my friends' CONVOCATION and this SATURDAY. weeee~

Speechless

Ibu n me ;)

Words are not enough to say what I feel right now...

Tomorrow I am going back to my Uni...

but before that,

there will be raye-visiting in Malacca...

I am So looking forward to meet my relatives...

Uni life will be resume again after 2 weeks of holidays...

And now,

Gotta go to sleep.

Gotta a loooog journey tomorrow.

See you guys in IIUM!!!!

When CREATIVITY Strikes

I just post an entry 5 minutes ago
then
decide to post another entry
because I cannot sleep and
does not know what to do...
huhuhu...

So this entry
just to show you
what happened when
my CREATIVE soul strikes...


Enjoy...



CARD 1

-Cover-

-Inside-


CARD 2

-Front- (upper view)


-Front- (zoom in view)


-Back- (upper view) *mcm kenal je kan?*



-Back- (zoom in view)


CARD 3

-Front-

-Back-

-Back- (zoom in)

OK

that's it for now.

There are also some items which
I forgot to take picture of it.

Never mind.
Goodnite everyone.
Lights Off....!